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Catherine, with all the earnestness of truth, expressed her astonishment at
such a charge, protesting her innocence of every thought of Mr. Thorpe's being
in love with her, and the consequent impossibility of her having ever intended
to encourage him. "As to any attentions on his side, I do declare, upon my
honour, I never was sensible of them for a
moment--except just his asking me to dance the first day of his coming. And as
to making me an offer, or anything like it, there must be some unaccountable,
mistake. I could not have misunderstood a thing of that kind, you know! And, as
I ever wish to be believed, I solemnly protest that no syllable of such a
nature ever passed between us. The last half hour before he went away! It must
be all and completely a mistake--for I did not see him once that whole
morning."
"But that you certainly did, for you spent the whole morning in Edgar's
Buildings--it was the day your father's consent came--and I am pretty sure that
you and John were alone in the parlour some time
before you left the house."
"Are you? Well, if you say it, it was so, I dare say--but for the life
of me, I cannot recollect it. I do remember now being with you, and seeing him
as well as the rest--but that we were ever alone for five minutes-- However, it
is not worth arguing about, for whatever might pass on his side, you must be
convinced, by my having no recollection of it, that I never thought, nor
expected, nor wished for anything of the kind from him. I am excessively
concerned that he should have any regard for me--but indeed it has been quite
unintentional on my side; I never had the smallest idea of it. Pray undeceive
him as soon as you can, and tell him I beg his pardon--that is--I do not know
what I ought to say--but make him understand what I mean, in the properest way. I would not speak disrespectfully of a
brother of yours, Isabella, I am sure; but you know very well that if I could
think of one man more than another--he is not the person." Isabella was
silent. "My dear friend, you must not be angry with me. I cannot suppose
your brother cares so very much about me. And, you know, we shall still be
sisters."
"Yes, yes" (with a blush), "there are more ways than one of
our being sisters. But where am I wandering to? Well, my dear Catherine, the
case seems to be that you are determined against poor John--is not it so?"
"I certainly cannot return his affection, and as certainly never meant
to encourage it."
"Since that is the case, I am sure I shall not tease you any further.
John desired me to speak to you on the subject, and therefore I have. But I
confess, as soon as I read his letter, I thought it a very foolish, imprudent
business, and not likely to promote the good of either; for what were you to
live upon, supposing you came together? You have both of you something, to be
sure, but it is not a trifle that will support a family nowadays; and after all
that romancers may say, there is no doing without money. I only wonder John
could think of it; he could not have received my last."
"You do acquit me, then, of anything wrong?--You are convinced that I
never meant to deceive your brother, never suspected him of liking me till this
moment?"
"Oh! As to that," answered Isabella laughingly, "I do not
pretend to determine what your thoughts and designs in time past may have been.
All that is best known to yourself. A little harmless
flirtation or so will occur, and one is often drawn on to give more
encouragement than one wishes to stand by. But you may be assured that I am the
last person in the world to judge you severely. All those things should be
allowed for in youth and high spirits. What one means one day, you know, one
may not mean the next. Circumstances change, opinions alter."
"But my opinion of your brother never did alter; it was always the
same. You are describing what never happened."
"My dearest Catherine," continued the other without at all
listening to her, "I would not for all the world be
the means of hurrying you into an engagement before you knew what you were
about. I do not think anything would justify me in wishing you to sacrifice all
your happiness merely to oblige my brother, because he is my brother, and who
perhaps after all, you know, might be just as happy without you, for people
seldom know what they would be at, young men especially, they are so amazingly
changeable and inconstant. What I say is, why should a
brother's happiness be dearer to me than a friend's? You know I carry my
notions of friendship pretty high. But, above all things, my dear Catherine, do
not be in a hurry. Take my word for it, that if you are in too great a hurry,
you will certainly live to repent it. Tilney says
there is nothing people are so often deceived in as the state of their own
affections, and I believe he is very right. Ah! Here he comes; never mind, he will
not see us, I am sure."
Catherine, looking up, perceived Captain Tilney;
and Isabella, earnestly fixing her eye on him as she spoke, soon caught his
notice. He approached immediately, and took the seat to which her movements
invited him. His first address made Catherine start. Though spoken low, she
could distinguish, "What! Always to be watched, in person or by
proxy!"
"Psha, nonsense!" was Isabella's answer
in the same half whisper. "Why do you put such things into my head? If I
could believe it--my spirit, you know, is pretty independent."
"I wish your heart were independent. That would be enough for me."
"My heart, indeed! What can you have to do
with hearts? You men have none of you any hearts."
"If we have not hearts, we have eyes; and they give us torment
enough."
"Do they? I am sorry for it; I am sorry they find anything so
disagreeable in me. I will look another way. I hope this pleases you"
(turning her back on him); "I hope your eyes are not tormented now."
"Never more so; for the edge of a blooming cheek is
still in view--at once too much and too little."
Catherine heard all this, and quite out of countenance, could listen no
longer. Amazed that Isabella could endure it, and jealous for her brother, she
rose up, and saying she should join Mrs. Allen, proposed their walking. But for
this Isabella showed no inclination. She was so amazingly tired, and it was so
odious to parade about the pump-room; and if she moved from her seat she should
miss her sisters; she was expecting her sisters every moment; so that her
dearest Catherine must excuse her, and must sit quietly down again. But
Catherine could be stubborn too; and Mrs. Allen just then coming up to propose
their returning home, she joined her and walked out of the pump-room, leaving Isabella
still sitting with Captain Tilney. With much
uneasiness did she thus leave them. It seemed to her
that Captain Tilney was falling in love with
Isabella, and Isabella unconsciously encouraging him; unconsciously it must be,
for Isabella's attachment to James was as certain and well acknowledged as her
engagement. To doubt her truth or good intentions was impossible; and yet,
during the whole of their conversation her manner had been odd. She wished
Isabella had talked more like her usual self, and not so much about money, and
had not looked so well pleased at the sight of Captain Tilney.
How strange that she should not perceive his admiration! Catherine longed to
give her a hint of it, to put her on her guard, and prevent all the pain which
her too lively behaviour might otherwise create both
for him and her brother.
The compliment of John Thorpe's affection did not make amends for this
thoughtlessness in his sister. She was almost as far from
believing as from wishing it to be sincere; for she had not forgotten
that he could mistake, and his assertion of the offer and of her encouragement
convinced her that his mistakes could sometimes be very egregious. In vanity,
therefore, she gained but little; her chief profit was in wonder. That he
should think it worth his while to fancy himself in love with her was a matter
of lively astonishment. Isabella talked of his attentions; she had never been
sensible of any; but Isabella had said many things which she hoped had been
spoken in haste, and would never be said again; and upon this she was glad to
rest altogether for present ease and comfort.
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