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"It has been your own doing entirely?" Catherine said nothing.
After a short silence, during which he had closely observed her, he added,
"As there is nothing in the room in itself to raise curiosity, this must
have proceeded from a sentiment of respect for my mother's character, as described
by Eleanor, which does honour to her memory. The
world, I believe, never saw a better woman. But it is not often that virtue can
boast an interest such as this. The domestic, unpretending merits of a person
never known do not often create that kind of fervent, venerating tenderness
which would prompt a visit like yours. Eleanor, I suppose, has talked of her a
great deal?"
"Yes, a great deal. That is--no, not much, but what she did say was
very interesting. Her dying so suddenly" (slowly, and with hesitation it
was spoken), "and you--none of you being at home--and your father, I
thought--perhaps had not been very fond of her."
"And from these circumstances," he replied (his quick eye fixed on
hers), "you infer perhaps the probability of some negligence--some"--(involuntarily
she shook her head)--"or it may be--of something still less
pardonable." She raised her eyes towards him more fully than she had ever
done before. "My mother's illness," he continued, "the seizure which
ended in her death, was sudden. The malady itself, one from which she had often
suffered, a bilious fever--its cause therefore constitutional. On the third
day, in short, as soon as she could be prevailed on, a physician attended her,
a very respectable man, and one in whom she had always placed great confidence.
Upon his opinion of her danger, two others were called in the next day, and
remained in almost constant attendance for four and twenty hours. On the fifth
day she died. During the progress of her disorder, Frederick and I (we were
both at home) saw her repeatedly; and from our own observation can bear witness
to her having received every possible attention which could spring from the
affection of those about her, or which her situation in life could command.
Poor Eleanor was absent, and at such a distance as to return only to see her
mother in her coffin."
"But your father," said Catherine,
"was he afflicted?"
"For a time, greatly so. You have erred in
supposing him not attached to her. He loved her, I am persuaded, as well as it
was possible for him to--we have not all, you know, the same tenderness of
disposition--and I will not pretend to say that while she lived, she might not
often have had much to bear, but though his temper injured her, his judgment
never did. His value of her was sincere; and, if not permanently, he was truly
afflicted by her death."
"I am very glad of it," said Catherine; "it would have been
very shocking!"
"If I understand you rightly, you had formed a surmise of such horror
as I have hardly words to-- Dear Miss Morland,
consider the dreadful nature of the suspicions you have entertained. What have
you been judging from? Remember the country and the age in which we live.
Remember that we are English, that we are Christians. Consult your own understanding,
your own sense of the probable, your own observation of what is passing around
you. Does our education prepare us for such atrocities? Do our laws connive at
them? Could they be perpetrated without being known, in a country like this,
where social and literary intercourse is on such a footing, where every man is
surrounded by a neighbourhood of voluntary spies, and
where roads and newspapers lay everything open? Dearest Miss Morland, what ideas have you been admitting?"
They had reached the end of the gallery, and with tears of shame she ran off
to her own room.
CHAPTER
25
The visions of romance were over. Catherine was completely awakened. Henry's
address, short as it had been, had more thoroughly opened her eyes to the
extravagance of her late fancies than all their several disappointments had
done. Most grievously was she humbled. Most bitterly
did she cry. It was not only with herself
that she was sunk--but with Henry. Her folly, which now seemed even criminal,
was all exposed to him, and he must despise her forever. The liberty which her
imagination had dared to take with the character of his father--could he ever
forgive it? The absurdity of her curiosity and her
fears--could they ever be forgotten? She hated herself more than she
could express. He had--she thought he had, once or twice before this fatal
morning, shown something like affection for her. But now--in short, she made
herself as miserable as possible for about half an hour, went down when the
clock struck five, with a broken heart, and could scarcely give an intelligible
answer to Eleanor's inquiry if she was well. The formidable Henry soon followed
her into the room, and the only difference in his behaviour
to her was that he paid her rather more attention than usual. Catherine had never
wanted comfort more, and he looked as if he was aware
of it.
The evening wore away with no abatement of this soothing politeness; and her
spirits were gradually raised to a modest tranquillity.
She did not learn either to forget or defend the past; but she learned to hope
that it would never transpire farther, and that it might not cost her Henry's
entire regard. Her thoughts being still chiefly fixed on what she had with such
causeless terror felt and done, nothing could shortly be clearer than that it
had been all a voluntary, self-created delusion, each trifling circumstance
receiving importance from an imagination resolved on alarm, and everything
forced to bend to one purpose by a mind which, before she entered the abbey,
had been craving to be frightened. She remembered with what feelings she had
prepared for a knowledge of Northanger. She saw that the infatuation had been
created, the mischief settled, long before her quitting Bath, and it seemed as
if the whole might be traced to the influence of that sort of reading which she
had there indulged.
Charming as were all Mrs. Radcliffe's works, and
charming even as were the works of all her imitators, it was not in them
perhaps that human nature, at least in the Midland counties of England, was to
be looked for. Of the Alps and Pyrenees, with their pine forests and their
vices, they might give a faithful delineation; and Italy, Switzerland, and the
south of France might be as fruitful in horrors as they were there represented.
Catherine dared not doubt beyond her own country, and even of that, if hard
pressed, would have yielded the northern and western extremities. But in the
central part of England
there was surely some security for the existence even of a wife not beloved, in
the laws of the land, and the manners of the age. Murder was not tolerated, servants were not slaves, and neither poison nor
sleeping potions to be procured, like rhubarb, from every druggist. Among the Alps
and Pyrenees, perhaps, there were no mixed characters.
There, such as were not as spotless as an angel might have the dispositions of
a fiend. But in England
it was not so; among the English, she believed, in their hearts and habits,
there was a general though unequal mixture of good and bad. Upon this
conviction, she would not be surprised if even in Henry and Eleanor Tilney, some slight imperfection might hereafter appear;
and upon this conviction she need not fear to acknowledge some actual specks in
the character of their father, who, though cleared from the grossly injurious
suspicions which she must ever blush to have entertained, she did believe, upon
serious consideration, to be not perfectly amiable.
Her mind made up on these several points, and her resolution formed, of
always judging and acting in future with the greatest good sense, she had
nothing to do but to forgive herself and be happier than ever; and the lenient
hand of time did much for her by insensible gradations in the course of another
day. Henry's astonishing generosity and nobleness of conduct, in never alluding
in the slightest way to what had passed, was of the greatest assistance to her;
and sooner than she could have supposed it possible in the beginning of her
distress, her spirits became absolutely comfortable, and capable, as
heretofore, of continual improvement by anything he said. There were still some
subjects, indeed, under which she believed they must
always tremble--the mention of a chest or a cabinet, for instance--and she did
not love the sight of japan in any shape: but even
she could allow that an occasional memento of past folly, however painful,
might not be without use.
The anxieties of common life began soon to succeed to the alarms of romance.
Her desire of hearing from Isabella grew every day greater. She was quite
impatient to know how the Bath world went on, and how the rooms were attended;
and especially was she anxious to be assured of Isabella's having matched some
fine netting-cotton, on which she had left her intent; and of her continuing on
the best terms with James. Her only dependence for information of any kind was
on Isabella. James had protested against writing to her till his return to Oxford;
and Mrs. Allen had given her no hopes of a letter till she had got back to Fullerton.
But Isabella had promised and promised again; and when she promised a thing,
she was so scrupulous in performing it! This made it so particularly strange!
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