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Her father, mother, Sarah, George, and Harriet, all assembled at the door to
welcome her with affectionate eagerness, was a sight to awaken the best feelings
of Catherine's heart; and in the embrace of each, as she stepped from the
carriage, she found herself soothed beyond anything that she had believed
possible. So surrounded, so caressed, she was even happy! In the joyfulness of
family love everything for a short time was subdued, and the pleasure of seeing
her, leaving them at first little leisure for calm curiosity, they were all
seated round the tea-table, which Mrs. Morland had
hurried for the comfort of the poor traveller, whose
pale and jaded looks soon caught her notice, before any inquiry so direct as to
demand a positive answer was addressed to her.
Reluctantly, and with much hesitation, did she then begin what might
perhaps, at the end of half an hour, be termed, by the courtesy of her hearers,
an explanation; but scarcely, within that time, could they at all discover the
cause, or collect the particulars, of her sudden return. They were far from
being an irritable race; far from any quickness in catching, or bitterness in
resenting, affronts: but here, when the whole was unfolded, was an insult not
to be overlooked, nor, for the first half hour, to be easily pardoned. Without
suffering any romantic alarm, in the consideration of their daughter's long and
lonely journey, Mr. and Mrs. Morland could not but
feel that it might have been productive of much unpleasantness to her; that it
was what they could never have voluntarily suffered; and that, in forcing her
on such a measure, General Tilney had acted neither honourably nor feelingly--neither as a gentleman nor as a
parent. Why he had done it, what could have provoked him to such a breach of
hospitality, and so suddenly turned all his partial regard for their daughter
into actual ill will, was a matter which they were at least as far from divining
as Catherine herself; but it did not oppress them by any means so long; and,
after a due course of useless conjecture, that "it was a strange business,
and that he must be a very strange man," grew enough for all their
indignation and wonder; though Sarah indeed still indulged in the sweets of
incomprehensibility, exclaiming and conjecturing with youthful ardour. "My dear, you give yourself a great deal of
needless trouble," said her mother at last; "depend upon it, it is something not at all worth understanding."
"I can allow for his wishing Catherine away, when he recollected this
engagement," said Sarah, "but why not do it civilly?"
"I am sorry for the young people," returned Mrs. Morland; "they must have a sad time of it; but as for
anything else, it is no matter now; Catherine is safe at home, and our comfort
does not depend upon General Tilney." Catherine
sighed. "Well," continued her philosophic mother, "I am glad I
did not know of your journey at the time; but now it is an over, perhaps there
is no great harm done. It is always good for young people to be put upon
exerting themselves; and you know, my dear Catherine, you always were a sad
little shatter-brained creature; but now you must have been forced to have your
wits about you, with so much changing of chaises and so forth; and I hope it
will appear that you have not left anything behind you in any of the
pockets."
Catherine hoped so too, and tried to feel an interest in her own amendment,
but her spirits were quite worn down; and, to be silent and alone becoming soon
her only wish, she readily agreed to her mother's next counsel of going early
to bed. Her parents, seeing nothing in her ill looks and agitation but the
natural consequence of mortified feelings, and of the unusual exertion and fatigue
of such a journey, parted from her without any doubt of their being soon slept
away; and though, when they all met the next morning, her recovery was not
equal to their hopes, they were still perfectly unsuspicious of there being any
deeper evil. They never once thought of her heart, which, for the parents of a
young lady of seventeen, just returned from her first excursion from home, was
odd enough!
As soon as breakfast was over, she sat down to fulfil
her promise to Miss Tilney, whose trust in the effect
of time and distance on her friend's disposition was already justified, for
already did Catherine reproach herself with having parted from Eleanor coldly,
with having never enough valued her merits or kindness, and never enough
commiserated her for what she had been yesterday left to endure. The strength
of these feelings, however, was far from assisting her pen; and never had it
been harder for her to write than in addressing Eleanor Tilney.
To compose a letter which might at once do justice to her sentiments and her
situation, convey gratitude without servile regret, be guarded without
coldness, and honest without resentment--a letter which Eleanor might not be
pained by the perusal of--and, above all, which she might not blush herself, if
Henry should chance to see, was an undertaking to frighten away all her powers
of performance; and, after long thought and much perplexity, to be very brief
was all that she could determine on with any confidence of safety. The money
therefore which Eleanor had advanced was enclosed with little more than
grateful thanks, and the thousand good wishes of a most affectionate heart.
"This has been a strange acquaintance," observed Mrs. Morland, as the letter was finished; "soon made and
soon ended. I am sorry it happens so, for Mrs. Allen thought them very pretty
kind of young people; and you were sadly out of luck too in your Isabella. Ah!
Poor James! Well, we must live and learn; and the next new friends you make I
hope will be better worth keeping."
Catherine coloured as she warmly answered,
"No friend can be better worth keeping than Eleanor."
"If so, my dear, I dare say you will meet again some time or other; do
not be uneasy. It is ten to one but you are thrown together again in the course
of a few years; and then what a pleasure it will be!"
Mrs. Morland was not happy in her attempt at
consolation. The hope of meeting again in the course of a few years could only
put into Catherine's head what might happen within that time to make a meeting
dreadful to her. She could never forget Henry Tilney,
or think of him with less tenderness than she did at that moment; but he might
forget her; and in that case, to meet--! Her eyes filled with tears as she
pictured her acquaintance so renewed; and her mother, perceiving her
comfortable suggestions to have had no good effect, proposed, as another
expedient for restoring her spirits, that they should call on Mrs. Allen.
The two houses were only a quarter of a mile apart; and, as they walked,
Mrs. Morland quickly dispatched all that she felt on
the score of James's disappointment. "We are sorry for him," said
she; "but otherwise there is no harm done in the match going off; for it
could not be a desirable thing to have him engaged to a girl whom we had not
the smallest acquaintance with, and who was so entirely without fortune; and
now, after such behaviour, we cannot think at all
well of her. Just at present it comes hard to poor James; but that will not
last forever; and I dare say he will be a discreeter
man all his life, for the foolishness of his first choice."
This was just such a summary view of the affair as Catherine could listen
to; another sentence might have endangered her complaisance, and made her reply
less rational; for soon were all her thinking powers swallowed up in the
reflection of her own change of feelings and spirits since last she had trodden
that well-known road. It was not three months ago since, wild with joyful
expectation, she had there run backwards and forwards some ten times a day,
with an heart light, gay, and independent; looking forward to pleasures untasted and unalloyed, and free from the apprehension of
evil as from the knowledge of it. Three months ago had seen her all this; and
now, how altered a being did she return!
She was received by the Allens with all the
kindness which her unlooked-for appearance, acting on a steady affection, would
naturally call forth; and great was their surprise, and warm
their displeasure, on hearing how she had been treated--though Mrs. Morland's account of it was no inflated representation, no
studied appeal to their passions. "Catherine took us quite by surprise
yesterday evening," said she. "She travelled
all the way post by herself, and knew nothing of coming till Saturday night;
for General Tilney, from some odd fancy or other, all
of a sudden grew tired of having her there, and almost turned her out of the
house. Very unfriendly, certainly; and he must be a very odd man; but we are so
glad to have her amongst us again! And it is a great comfort to find that she
is not a poor helpless creature, but can shift very well for herself."
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