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DEAR LUCY:
No doubt you will be surprised at hearing from me so soon again, especially
as this makes two in answer to the one received from you since getting back to
the old place. I hear you have been making comments about me at the theatre,
that some actor was more democratic in his manners than I am, which I do not
understand. You know my theory of life because I explained it to you on our
first drive together, when I told you I would not talk to everybody about
things I feel like the way I spoke to you of my theory of life. I believe those
who are able should have a true theory of life, and I developed my theory of
life long, long ago.
Well, here I sit smoking my faithful briar pipe, indulging in the fragrance
of my tabac as I look out on the campus from my many-paned window, and things
are different with me from the way they were way back in Freshman year. I can
see now how boyish in many ways I was then. I believe what has changed me as
much as anything was my visit home at the time I met you. So I sit here with my
faithful briar and dream the old dreams over as it were, dreaming of the waltzes
we waltzed together and of that last night before we parted, and you told me
the good news you were going to live there, and I would find my friend waiting
for me, when I get home next summer.
I will be glad my friend will be waiting for me. I am not capable of
friendship except for the very few, and, looking back over my life, I remember
there were times when I doubted if I could feel a great friendship for
anybody--especially girls. I do not take a great interest in many people, as
you know, for I find most of them shallow. Here in the old place I do not
believe in being hail-fellow-well-met with every Tom, Dick, and Harry just
because he happens to be a classmate, any more than I do at home, where I have
always been careful who I was seen with, largely on account of the family, but
also because my disposition ever since my boyhood has been to encourage real
intimacy from but the few.
What are you reading now? I have finished both "Henry Esmond" and
"The Virginians." I like Thackeray because he is not trashy, and
because he writes principally of nice people. My theory of literature is an
author who does not indulge in trashiness--writes about people you could
introduce into your own home. I agree with my Uncle Sydney, as I once heard him
say he did not care to read a book or go to a play about people he would not
care to meet at his own dinner table. I believe we should live by certain
standards and ideals, as you know from my telling you my theory of life.
Well, a letter is no place for deep discussions, so I will not go into the
subject. From several letters from my mother, and one from Aunt Fanny, I hear
you are seeing a good deal of the family since I left. I hope sometimes you
think of the member who is absent. I got a silver frame for your photograph in
New York, and I keep it on my desk. It is the only girl's photograph I ever
took the trouble to have framed, though, as I told you frankly, I have had any
number of other girls' photographs, yet all were only passing fancies, and
oftentimes I have questioned in years past if I was capable of much friendship
toward the feminine sex, which I usually found shallow until our own friendship
began. When I look at your photograph, I say to myself, "At last, at last
here is one that will not prove shallow."
My faithful briar has gone out. I will have to rise and fill it, then once
more in the fragrance of My Lady Nicotine, I will sit and dream the old dreams
over, and think, too, of the true friend at home awaiting my return in June for
the summer vacation.
Friend, this is from your friend,
G. A. M. George's anticipations were not disappointed. When he came home in
June his friend was awaiting him; at least, she was so pleased to see him again
that for a few minutes after their first encounter she was a little breathless,
and a great deal glowing, and quiet withal. Their sentimental friendship
continued, though sometimes he was irritated by her making it less sentimental
than he did, and sometimes by what he called her "air of
superiority." Her air was usually, in truth, that of a fond but amused
older sister; and George did not believe such an attitude was warranted by her
eight months of seniority.
Lucy and her father were living at the Amberson Hotel, while Morgan got his
small machine-shops built in a western outskirt of the town; and George
grumbled about the shabbiness and the old-fashioned look of the hotel, though
it was "still the best in the place, of course." He remonstrated with
his grandfather, declaring that the whole Amberson Estate would be getting
"run-down and out-at-heel, if things weren't taken in hand pretty
soon." He urged the general need of rebuilding, renovating, varnishing,
and lawsuits. But the Major, declining to hear him out, interrupted
querulously, saying that he had enough to bother him without any advice from
George; and retired to his library, going so far as to lock the door audibly.
"Second childhood!" George muttered, shaking his head; and he
thought sadly that the major had not long to live. However, this surmise
depressed him for only a moment or so. Of course, people couldn't be expected
to live forever, and it would be a good thing to have someone in charge of the
Estate who wouldn't let it get to looking so rusty that riffraff dared to make
fun of it. For George had lately undergone the annoyance of calling upon the
Morgans, in the rather stuffy red velours and gilt parlour of their apartment
at the hotel, one evening when Mr. Frederick Kinney also was a caller, and Mr.
Kinney had not been tactful. In fact, though he adopted a humorous tone of
voice, in expressing his sympathy for people who, through the city's poverty in
hotels, were obliged to stay at the Amberson, Mr. Kinney's intention was
interpreted by the other visitor as not at all humorous, but, on the contrary,
personal and offensive.
George rose abruptly, his face the colour of wrath. "Good-night, Miss
Morgan. Good-night, Mr. Morgan," he said. "I shall take pleasure in
calling at some other time when a more courteous sort of people may be
present."
"Look here!" the hot-headed Fred burst out. "Don't you try to
make me out a boor, George Minafer! I wasn't hinting anything at you; I simply
forgot all about your grandfather owning this old building. Don't you try to
put me in the light of a boor! I won't--"
But George walked out in the very course of this vehement protest, and it
was necessarily left unfinished.
Mr. Kinney remained only a few moments after George's departure; and as the
door closed upon him, the distressed Lucy turned to her father. She was plaintively
surprised to find him in a condition of immoderate laughter.
"I didn't--I didn't think I could hold out!" be gasped, and, after
choking until tears came to his eyes, felt blindly for the chair from which he
had risen to wish Mr. Kinney an indistinct good-night. His hand found the arm
of the chair; he collapsed feebly, and sat uttering incoherent sounds.
"Papa!"
"It brings things back so!" he managed to explain. "This very
Fred Kinney's father and young George's father, Wilbur Minafer, used to do just
such things when they were at that age--and, for that matter, so did George
Amberson and I, and all the rest of us!" And, in spite of his exhaustion,
he began to imitate: "'Don't you try to put me in the light of a boor!' 'I
shall take pleasure in calling at some time when a more courteous sort of
people--'" He was unable to go on.
There is a mirth for every age, and Lucy failed to comprehend her father's,
but tolerated it a little ruefully.
"Papa, I think they were shocking. Weren't they awful!"
"Just--just boys!" he moaned, wiping his eyes.
But Lucy could not smile at all; she was beginning to look indignant.
"I can forgive that poor Fred Kinney," she said. "He's just
blundering--but George--oh, George behaved outrageously!"
"It's a difficult age," her father observed, his calmness somewhat
restored. "Girls don't seem to have to pass through it quite as boys do,
or their savoir faire is instinctive--or something!" And he gave away to a
return of his convulsion.
She came and sat upon the arm of his chair. "Papa, why should George
behave like that?"
"He's sensitive."
"Rather! But why is he? He does anything he likes to, without any
regard for what people think. Then why should he mind so furiously when the
least little thing rejects upon him, or on anything or anybody connected with
him?"
Eugene patted her hand. "That's one of the greatest puzzles of human
vanity, dear; and I don't pretend to know the answer. In all my life, the most
arrogant people that I've known have been the most sensitive. The people who
have done the most in contempt of other people's opinion, and who consider
themselves the highest above it, have been the most furious if it went against
them. Arrogant and domineering people can't stand the least, lightest, faintest
breath of criticism. It just kills them."
"Papa, do you think George is terribly arrogant and domineering?"
"Oh, he's still only a boy," said Eugene consolingly.
"There's plenty of fine stuff in him--can't help but be, because he's
Isabel Amberson's son."
Lucy stroked his hair, which was still almost as dark as her own. "You
liked her pretty well once, I guess, papa."
"I do still," he said quietly.
"She's lovely--lovely! Papa--" she paused, then continued--"I
wonder sometimes--"
"What?"
"I wonder just how she happened to marry Mr. Minafer."
"Oh, Minafer's all right," said Eugene. "He's a quiet sort of
man, but he's a good man and a kind man. He always was, and those things
count."
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