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In
truth, however, he was neither so comfortable nor so imperturbable as he
appeared. He felt some gratification: he had done a little to put the man in
his place--that man whose influence upon his daughter was precisely the same
thing as a contemptuous criticism of George Amberson Minafer, and of George
Amberson Minafer's "ideals of life." Lucy's going away without a word
was intended, he supposed, as a bit of punishment. Well, he wasn't the sort of
man that people were allowed to punish: he could demonstrate that to
them--since they started it!
It
appeared to him as almost a kind of insolence, this abrupt departure--not even
telephoning! Probably she wondered how he would take it; she even might have
supposed he would show some betraying chagrin when he heard of it.
He
had no idea that this was just what he had shown; and he was satisfied with his
evening's performance. Nevertheless, he was not comfortable in his mind; though
he could not have explained his inward perturbations, for he was convinced,
without any confirmation from his Aunt Fanny, that he had done "just the
right thing."
CHAPTER XX
ISABEL
came to George's door that night, and when she had kissed him good-night she
remained in the open doorway with her hand upon his shoulder and her eyes
thoughtfully lowered, so that her wish to say something more than good-night
was evident. Not less obvious was her perplexity about the manner of saying it;
and George, divining her thought, amiably made an opening for her.
"Well,
old lady," he said indulgently, "you needn't look so worried. I won't
be tactless with Morgan again. After this I'll just keep out of his way."
Isabel
looked up, searching his face with the fond puzzlement which her eyes sometimes
showed when they rested upon him; then she glanced down the hall toward Fanny's
room, and, after another moment of hesitation, came quickly in, and closed the
door.
"Dear,"
she said, "I wish you'd tell me something: Why don't you like
Eugene?"
"Oh,
I like him well enough," George returned, with a short laugh, as he sat
down and began to unlace his shoes. "I like him well enough--in his
place."
"No,
dear," she said hurriedly. "I've had a feeling from the very first
that you didn't really like him--that you really never liked him. Sometimes
you've seemed to be friendly with him, and you'd laugh with him over something
in a jolly, companionable way, and I'd think I was wrong, and that you really
did like him, after all; but to-night I'm sure my other feeling was the right
one: you don't like him. I can't understand it, dear; I don't see what can be
the matter."
"Nothing's
the matter."
This
easy declaration naturally failed to carry great weight, and Isabel went on, in
her troubled voice, "It seems so queer, especially when you feel as you do
about his daughter."
At
this, George stopped unlacing his shoes abruptly, and sat up. "How do I
feel about his daughter?" he demanded.
"Well,
it's seemed--as if--as if--" Isabel began timidly. "It did seem--At
least, you haven't looked at any other girl, ever since they came here,
and--and certainly you've seemed very much interested in her. Certainly you've
been very great friends?"
"Well,
what of that?"
"It's
only that I'm like your grandfather: I can't see how you could be so much
interested in a girl and--and not feel very pleasantly toward her father."
"Well,
I'll tell you something," George said slowly; and a frown of concentration
could be seen upon his brow, as from a profound effort at self-examination.
"I haven't ever thought much on that particular point, but I admit there
may be a little something in what you say. The truth is, I don't believe I've
ever thought of the two together, exactly--at least, not until lately. I've
always thought of Lucy just as Lucy, and of Morgan just as Morgan. I've always
thought of her as a person herself, not as anybody's daughter. I don't see
what's very extraordinary about that. You've probably got plenty of friends,
for instance, that don't care much about your son--"
"No,
indeed!" she protested quickly. "And if I knew anybody who felt like
that, I wouldn't--"
"Never
mind," he interrupted. "I'll try to explain a little more. If I have
a friend, I don't see that it's incumbent upon me to like that friend's
relatives. If I didn't like them, and pretended to, I'd be a hypocrite. If that
friend likes me and wants to stay my friend he'll have to stand my not liking
his relatives, or else he can quit. I decline to be a hypocrite about it;
that's all. Now, suppose I have certain ideas or ideals which I have chosen for
the regulation of my own conduct in life. Suppose some friend of mine has a
relative with ideals directly the opposite of mine, and my friend believes more
in the relative's ideals than in mine: Do you think I ought to give up my own
just to please a person who's taken up ideals that I really despise?"
"No,
dear; of course people can't give up their ideals; but I don't see what this
has to do with dear little Lucy and--"
"I
didn't say it had anything to do with them," he interrupted. "I was
merely putting a case to show how a person would be justified in being a friend
of one member of a family, and feeling anything but friendly toward another. I
don't say, though, that I feel unfriendly to Mr. Morgan. I don't say that I
feel friendly to him, and I don't say that I feel unfriendly; but if you really
think that I was rude to him to-night--"
"Just
thoughtless, dear. You didn't see that what you said to-night--"
"Well,
I'll not say anything of that sort again where he can hear it. There, isn't
that enough?"
This
question, delivered with large indulgence, met with no response; for Isabel,
still searching his face with her troubled and perplexed gaze, seemed not to
have heard it. On that account, George repeated it, and rising, went to her and
patted her reassuringly upon the shoulder. "There, old lady, you needn't
fear my tactlessness will worry you again. I can't quite promise to like people
I don't care about one way or another, but you can be sure I'll be careful,
after this, not to let them see it. It's all right, and you'd better toddle
along to bed, because I want to undress."
"But,
George," she said earnestly, "you would like him, if you'd just let
yourself. You say you don't dislike him. Why don't you like him? I can't
understand at all. What is it that you don't--"
"There,
there!" he said. "It's all right, and you toddle along."
"But,
George--"
"Now,
now! I really do want to get into bed. Good-night, old lady."
"Good-night,
dear. But--"
"Let's
not talk of it any more," he said. "It's all right, and nothing in
the world to worry about. So good-night, old lady. I'll be polite enough to
him, never fear--if we happen to be thrown together. So good-night!"
"But,
George, dear--"
"I'm
going to bed, old lady; so good-night."
Thus
the interview closed perforce. She kissed him again before going slowly to her
own room, her perplexity evidently not dispersed; but the subject was not
renewed between them the next day or subsequently. Nor did Fanny make any
allusion to the cryptic approbation she had bestowed upon her nephew after the
Major's "not very successful little dinner"; though she annoyed
George by looking at him oftener and longer than he cared to be looked at by an
aunt. He could not glance her way, it seemed, without finding her red-rimmed
eyes fixed upon him eagerly, with an alert and hopeful calculation in them
which he declared would send a nervous man into fits. For thus, one day, he
broke out, in protest:
"It
would!" he repeated vehemently. "Given time it would--straight into
fits! What do you find the matter with me? Is my tie always slipping up behind?
Can't you look at something else? My Lord! We'd better buy a cat for you to
stare at, Aunt Fanny! A cat could stand it, maybe. What in the name of goodness
do you expect to see?"
But
Fanny laughed good-naturedly, and was not offended. "It's more as if I
expected you to see something, isn't it?" she said quietly, still
laughing.
"Now,
what do you mean by that?"
"Never
mind!"
"All
right, I don't. But for heaven's sake stare at somebody else awhile. Try it on
the house maid!"
"Well,
well," Fanny said indulgently, and then chose to be more obscure in her
meaning than ever, for she adopted a tone of deep sympathy for her final
remark, as she left him: "I don't wonder you're nervous these days, poor
boy!"
And
George indignantly supposed that she referred to the ordeal of Lucy's continued
absence. During this period he successfully avoided contact with Lucy's father,
though Eugene came frequently to the house, and spent several evenings with
Isabel and Fanny; and sometimes persuaded them and the Major to go for an
afternoon's motoring. He did not, however, come again to the Major's Sunday
evening dinner, even when George Amberson returned. Sunday evening was the
time, he explained, for going over the week's work with his factory managers.
.
. . When Lucy came home the autumn was far enough advanced to smell of burning
leaves, and for the annual editorials, in the papers, on the purple haze, the
golden branches, the ruddy fruit, and the pleasure of long tramps in the brown
forest. George had not heard of her arrival, and he met her, on the afternoon following
that event, at the Sharons', where he had gone in the secret hope that he might
hear something about her. Janie Sharon had just begun to tell him that she
heard Lucy was expected home soon, after having "a perfectly gorgeous
time"--information which George received with no responsive
enthusiasm--when Lucy came demurely in, a proper little autumn figure in green
and brown.
Her
cheeks were flushed, and her dark eyes were bright indeed; evidences, as George
supposed, of the excitement incidental to the perfectly gorgeous time just
concluded; though Janie and Mary Sharon both thought they were the effect of
Lucy's having seen George's runabout in front of the house as she came in.
George took on colour, himself, as he rose and nodded indifferently; and the
hot suffusion to which he became subject extended its area to include his neck
and ears. Nothing could have made him much more indignant than his
consciousness of these symptoms of the icy indifference which it was his
purpose not only to show but to feel.
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