"You
did right!" Fanny said with a vehemence not the less spirited because she
suppressed her voice almost to a whisper. "You did exactly right! You're
behaving splendidly about the whole thing, and I want to tell you I know your
father would thank you if he could see what you're doing."
"My
Lord!" George broke out at her. "You make me dizzy! For heaven's sake
quit the mysterious detective business--at least do quit it around me! Go and
try it on somebody else, if you like; but I don't want to hear it!"
She
began to tremble, regarding him with a fixed gaze. "You don't care to hear
then," she said huskily, "that I approve of what you're doing?"
"Certainly
not! Since I haven't the faintest idea what you think I'm 'doing,' naturally I
don't care whether you approve of it or not. All I'd like, if you please, is to
be alone. I'm not giving a tea here, this afternoon, if you'll permit me to
mention it!"
Fanny's
gaze wavered; she began to blink; then suddenly she sank into a chair and wept
silently, but with a terrible desolation.
"Oh,
for the Lord's sake!" he moaned. "What in the world is wrong with
you?"
"You're
always picking on me," she quavered wretchedly, her voice indistinct with
the wetness that bubbled into it from her tears. "You do--you always pick
on me! You've always done it always--ever since you were a little boy! Whenever
anything goes wrong with you, you take it out on me! You do! You always--"
George
flung to heaven a gesture of despair; it seemed to him the last straw that
Fanny should have chosen this particular time to come and sob in his room over
his mistreatment of her!
"Oh,
my Lord!" he whispered; then, with a great effort, addressed her in a
reasonable tone: "Look here, Aunt Fanny; I don't see what you're making
all this fuss about. Of course I know I've teased you sometimes, but--"
"'Teased'
me?" she wailed. "'Teased' me! Oh, it does seem too hard,
sometimes--this mean old life of mine does seem too hard! I don't think I can
stand it! Honestly, I don't think I can! I came in here just to show you I
sympathized with you--just to say something pleasant to you, and you treat me
as if I were--oh, no, you wouldn't treat a servant the way you treat me! You
wouldn't treat anybody in the world like this except old Fanny! 'Old Fanny' you
say. 'It's nobody but old Fanny, so I'll kick her--nobody will resent it. I'll
kick her all I want to!' You do! That's how you think of me--I know it! And
you're right: I haven't got anything in the world, since my brother
died--nobody--nothing--nothing!"
"Oh
my Lord!" George groaned.
Fanny
spread out her small, soaked handkerchief, and shook it in the air to dry it a
little, crying as damply and as wretchedly during this operation as before--a
sight which gave George a curious shock to add to his other agitations, it
seemed so strange. "I ought not to have come," she went on,
"because I might have known it would only give you an excuse to pick on me
again! I'm sorry enough I came, I can tell you! I didn't mean to speak of it
again to you, at all; and I wouldn't have, but I saw how you treated them, and
I guess I got excited about it, and couldn't help following the impulse--but
I'll know better next time, I can tell you! I'll keep my mouth shut as I meant
to, and as I would have, if I hadn't got excited and if I hadn't felt sorry for
you. But what does it matter to anybody if I'm sorry for them? I'm only old
Fanny!"
"Oh,
good gracious! How can it matter to me who's sorry for me when I don't know
what they're sorry about!"
"You're
so proud," she quavered, "and so hard! I tell you I didn't mean to
speak of it to you, and I never, never in the world would have told you about
it, nor have made the faintest reference to it, if I hadn't seen that somebody
else had told you, or you'd found out for yourself some way. I--"
In
despair of her intelligence, and in some doubt of his own, George struck the
palms of his hands together. "Somebody else had told me what? I'd found
what out for myself?"
"How
people are talking about your mother."
Except
for the incidental teariness of her voice, her tone was casual, as though she
mentioned a subject previously discussed and understood; for Fanny had no doubt
that George had only pretended to be mystified because, in his pride, he would
not in words admit that he knew what he knew.
"What
did you say?" he asked incredulously.
"Of
course I understood what you were doing," Fanny went on, drying her
handkerchief again. "It puzzled other people when you began to be rude to
Eugene, because they couldn't see how you could treat him as you did when you
were so interested in Lucy. But I remembered how you came to me, that other
time when there was so much talk about Isabel; and I knew you'd give Lucy up in
a minute, if it came to a question of your mother's reputation, because you
said then that--"
"Look
here," George interrupted in a shaking voice. "Look here, I'd
like--" He stopped, unable to go on, his agitation was so great. His chest
heaved as from hard running, and his complexion, pallid at first, had become
mottled; fiery splotches appearing at his temples and cheeks. "What do you
mean by telling me--telling me there's talk about--about--" He gulped, and
began again: "What do you mean by using such words as 'reputation'? What
do you mean, speaking of a 'question' of my--my mother's reputation?"
Fanny
looked up at him woefully over the handkerchief which she now applied to her
reddened nose. "God knows I'm sorry for you, George," she murmured.
"I wanted to say so, but it's only old Fanny, so whatever she says--even
when it's sympathy--pick on her for it! Hammer her!" She sobbed.
"Hammer her! It's only poor old lonely Fanny!"
"You
look here!" George said harshly. "When I spoke to my Uncle George
after that rotten thing I heard Aunt Amelia say about my mother, he said if
there was any gossip it was about you! He said people might be laughing about
the way you ran after Morgan, but that was all."
Fanny
lifted her hands, clenched them, and struck them upon her knees. "Yes;
it's always Fanny!" she sobbed, "Ridiculous old Fanny--always,
always!"
"You
listen!" George said. "After I'd talked to Uncle George I saw you;
and you said I had a mean little mind for thinking there might be truth in what
Aunt Amelia said about people talking. You denied it. And that wasn't the only
time; you'd attacked me before then, because I intimated that Morgan might be
coming here too often. You made me believe that mother let him come entirely on
your account, and now you say--"
"I
think he did," Fanny interrupted desolately "I think he did come as
much to see me as anything--for a while it looked like it. Anyhow, he liked to
dance with me. He danced with me as much as he danced with her, and he acted as
if he came on my account at least as much as he did on hers. He did act a good
deal that way--and if Wilbur hadn't died--"
"You
told me there wasn't any talk."
"I
didn't think there was much, then," Fanny protested. "I didn't know
how much there was."
"What!"
"People
don't come and tell such things to a person's family, you know. You don't
suppose anybody was going to say to George Amberson that his sister was getting
herself talked about, do you? Or that they were going to say much to me?"
"You
told me," said George, fiercely, "that mother never saw him except
when she was chaperoning you."
"They
weren't much alone together, then," Fanny returned. "Hardly ever,
before Wilbur died. But you don't suppose that stops people from talking, do
you? Your father never went anywhere, and people saw Eugene with her everywhere
she went and though I was with them people just thought"--she choked--"they
just thought I didn't count! 'Only old Fanny Minafer,' I suppose they'd say!
Besides, everybody knew that he'd been engaged to her--"
"What's
that?" George cried.
"Everybody
knows it. Don't you remember your grandfather speaking of it at the Sunday dinner
one night?"
"He
didn't say they were engaged or--"
"Well,
they were! Everybody knows it; and she broke it off on account of that serenade
when Eugene didn't know what he was doing. He drank when he was a young man,
and she wouldn't stand it, but everybody in this town knows that Isabel has
never really cared for any other man in her life! Poor Wilbur! He was the only
soul alive that didn't know it!"
Nightmare
had descended upon the unfortunate George; he leaned back against the
foot-board of his bed, gazing wildly at his aunt. "I believe I'm going
crazy," he said. "You mean when you told me there wasn't any talk,
you told me a falsehood?"
"No!"
Fanny gasped.
"You
did!"
"I
tell you I didn't know how much talk there was, and it wouldn't have amounted
to much if Wilbur had lived." And Fanny completed this with a fatal
admission: "I didn't want you to interfere."
George
overlooked the admission; his mind was not now occupied with analysis.
"What do you mean," he asked, "when you say that if father had lived,
the talk wouldn't have amounted to anything?"
"Things
might have been--they might have been different."
"You
mean Morgan might have married you?"
Fanny
gulped. "No. Because I don't know that I'd have accepted him." She
had ceased to weep, and now she sat up stiffly. "I certainly didn't care
enough about him to marry him; I wouldn't have let myself care that much until
he showed that he wished to marry me. I'm not that sort of person!" The
poor lady paid her vanity this piteous little tribute. "What I mean is, if
Wilbur hadn't died, people wouldn't have had it proved before their very eyes
that what they'd been talking about was true!"
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