"I'll
do that soon enough, but first I mean to know--"
"I
am perfectly willing to tell you anything you wish if you will remember to ask
it quietly. I'll also take the liberty of reminding you that I had a perfect
right to discuss the subject with your aunt. Other people may be less considerate
in not confining their discussion of it, as I have, to charitable views
expressed only to a member of the family. Other people--"
"Other
people!" the unhappy George repeated viciously. "That's what I want
to know about--these other people!"
"I
beg your pardon."
"I
want to ask you about them. You say you know of other people who talk about
this."
"I
presume they do."
"How
many?"
"What?"
"I
want to know how many other people talk about it?"
"Dear,
dear!" she protested. "How should I know that?"
"Haven't
you heard anybody mention it?"
"I
presume so."
"Well,
how many have you heard?"
Mrs.
Johnson was becoming more annoyed than apprehensive, and she showed it.
"Really, this isn't a court-room," she said. "And I'm not a defendant
in a libel-suit, either!"
The
unfortunate young man lost what remained of his balance. "You may
be!" he cried. "I intend to know just who's dared to say these
things, if I have to force my way into every house in town, and I'm going to
make them take every word of it back! I mean to know the name of every
slanderer that's spoken of this matter to you and of every tattler you've
passed it on to yourself. I mean to know--"
"You'll
know something pretty quick!" she said, rising with difficulty; and her
voice was thick with the sense of insult. "You'll know that you're out in
the street. Please to leave my house!"
George
stiffened sharply. Then he bowed, and strode out of the door.
Three
minutes later, dishevelled and perspiring, but cold all over, he burst into his
Uncle George's room at the Major's without knocking. Amberson was dressing.
"Good
gracious, Georgie!" he exclaimed. "What's up?"
"I've
just come from Mrs. Johnson's--across the street," George panted.
"You
have your own tastes!" was Amberson's comment. "But curious as they
are, you ought to do something better with your hair, and button your waistcoat
to the right buttons--even for Mrs. Johnson! What were you doing over
there?"
"She
told me to leave the house," George said desperately. "I went there
because Aunt Fanny told me the whole town was talking about my mother and that
man Morgan--that they say my mother is going to marry him and that proves she
was too fond of him before my father died--she said this Mrs. Johnson was one
that talked about it, and I went to her to ask who were the others."
Amberson's
jaw fell in dismay. "Don't tell me you did that!" he said, in a low
voice; and then, seeing that it was true, "Oh, now you have done it!"
CHAPTER XXIII
"I'VE
'done it'?" George cried. "What do you mean: I've done it? And what
have I done?"
Amberson
had collapsed into an easy chair beside his dressing-table, the white evening
tie he had been about to put on dangling from his hand, which had fallen limply
on the arm of the chair. The tie dropped to the floor before he replied; and
the hand that had held it was lifted to stroke his graying hair reactively.
"By Jove!" he muttered. "That is too bad!"
George
folded his arms bitterly. "Will you kindly answer my question? What have I
done that wasn't honourable and right? Do you think these riffraff can go about
bandying my mother's name--"
"They
can now," said Amberson. "I don't know if they could before, but they
certainly can now!"
"What
do you mean by that?"
His
uncle sighed profoundly, picked up his tie, and, preoccupied with despondency,
twisted the strip of white lawn till it became unwearable. Meanwhile, he tried
to enlighten his nephew. "Gossip is never fatal, Georgie," he said,
"until it is denied. Gossip goes on about every human being alive and
about all the dead that are alive enough to be remembered, and yet almost never
does any harm until some defender makes a controversy. Gossip's a nasty thing,
but it's sickly, and if people of good intentions will let it entirely alone,
it will die, ninety-nine times out of a hundred."
"See
here," George said: "I didn't come to listen to any generalizing dose
of philosophy! I ask you--"
"You
asked me what you've done, and I'm telling you." Amberson gave him a
melancholy smile, continuing: "Suffer me to do it in my own way. Fanny
says there's been talk about your mother, and that Mrs. Johnson does some of
it. I don't know, because naturally nobody would come to me with such stuff or
mention it before me; but it's presumably true--I suppose it is. I've seen
Fanny with Mrs. Johnson quite a lot; and that old lady is a notorious gossip,
and that's why she ordered you out of her house when you pinned her down that
she'd been gossiping. I have a suspicion Mrs. Johnson has been quite a comfort to
Fanny in their long talks; but she'll probably quit speaking to her over this,
because Fanny told you. I suppose it's true that the 'whole town,' a lot of
others, that is, do share in the gossip. In this town, naturally, anything
about any Amberson has always been a stone dropped into the centre of a pond,
and a lie would send the ripples as far as a truth would. I've been on a
steamer when the story went all over the boat, the second day out, that the
prettiest girl on board didn't have any ears; and you can take it as a rule
that when a woman's past thirty-five the prettier her hair is, the more certain
you are to meet somebody with reliable information that it's a wig. You can be
sure that for many years there's been more gossip in this place about the
Ambersons than about any other family. I dare say it isn't so much so now as it
used to be, because the town got too big long ago, but it's the truth that the
more prominent you are the more gossip there is about you, and the more people
would like to pull you down. Well, they can't do it as long as you refuse to
know what gossip there is about you. But the minute you notice it, it's got
you! I'm not speaking of certain kinds of slander that sometimes people have
got to take to the courts; I'm talking of the wretched buzzing the Mrs.
Johnsons do--the thing you seem to have such a horror of--people 'talking'--the
kind of thing that has assailed your mother. People who have repeated a slander
either get ashamed or forget it, if they're let alone. Challenge them, and in
self-defense they believe everything they've said; they'd rather believe you a
sinner than believe themselves liars, naturally. Submit to gossip and you kill
it; fight it and you make it strong. People will forget almost any slander
except one that's been fought."
"Is
that all?" George asked.
"I
suppose so," his uncle murmured sadly.
"Well,
then, may I ask what you'd have done, in my place?"
"I'm
not sure, Georgie. When I was your age I was like you in many ways, especially in
not being very cool-headed, so I can't say. Youth can't be trusted for much,
except asserting itself and fighting and making love."
"Indeed!"
George snorted. "May I ask what you think I ought to have done?"
"Nothing."
"'Nothing?'"
George echoed, mocking bitterly "I suppose you think I mean to let my
mother's good name--"
"Your
mother's good name!" Amberson cut him off impatiently. "Nobody has a
good name in a bad mouth. Nobody has a good name in a silly mouth, either.
Well, your mother's name was in some silly mouths, and all you've done was to
go and have a scene with the worst old woman gossip in the town--a scene that's
going to make her into a partisan against your mother, whereas she was a mere
prattler before. Don't you suppose she'll be all over town with this to-morrow?
To-morrow? Why, she'll have her telephone going to-night as long as any of her
friends are up! People that never heard anything about this are going to hear
it all now, with embellishments. And she'll see to it that everybody who's
hinted anything about poor Isabel will know that you're on the warpath; and
that will put them on the defensive and make them vicious. The story will grow
as it spreads and--"
George
unfolded his arms to strike his right fist into his left palm. "But do you
suppose I'm going to tolerate such things?" he shouted. "What do you
suppose I'll be doing?"
"Nothing
helpful."
"Oh,
you think so, do you?"
"You
can do absolutely nothing," said Amberson. "Nothing of any use. The
more you do the more harm you'll do."
"You'll
see! I'm going to stop this thing if I have to force my way into every house on
National Avenue and Amberson Boulevard!"
His
uncle laughed rather sourly, but made no other comment.
"Well,
what do you propose to do?" George demanded. "Do you propose to sit
there--"
"Yes."
"--and
let this riffraff bandy my mother's good name back and forth among them? Is
that what you propose to do?"
"It's
all I can do," Amberson returned. "It's all any of us can do now:
just sit still and hope that the thing may die down in time, in spite of your
stirring up that awful old woman."
George
drew a long breath, then advanced and stood close before his uncle.
"Didn't you understand me when I told you that people are saying my mother
means to marry this man?"
"Yes,
I understood you."
"You
say that my going over there has made matters worse," George went on.
"How about it if such a--such an unspeakable marriage did take place? Do
you think that would make people believe they'd been wrong in saying--you know
what they say."
"No,"
said Amberson deliberately; "I don't believe it would. There'd be more
badness in the bad mouths and more silliness in the silly mouths, I dare say.
But it wouldn't hurt Isabel and Eugene, if they never heard of it; and if they
did hear of it, then they could take their choice between placating gossip or
living for their own happiness. If they have decided to marry--"
George
almost staggered. "Good God!" he gasped. "You speak of it
calmly!"
Amberson
looked up at him inquiringly. "Why shouldn't they marry if they want
to?" he asked. "It's their own affair."
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