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George
gulped painfully before he could speak. "You--you mean to sit there and
tell me that if I'd just let things go on--Oh!" He swung away, walking the
floor again. "I tell you I did the only right thing! If you don't think
so, why in the name of heaven can't you say what else I should have done? It's
easy enough to criticize, but the person who criticizes a man ought at least to
tell him what else he should have done! You think I was wrong!"
"I'm
not saying so," she said.
"You
did at the time!" he cried. "You said enough then, I think! Well,
what have you to say now, if you're so sure I was wrong?"
"Nothing,
George."
"It's
only because you're afraid to!" he said, and he went on with a sudden
bitter divination: "You're reproaching yourself with what you had to do
with all that; and you're trying to make up for it by doing and saying what you
think mother would want you to, and you think I couldn't stand it if I got to
thinking I might have done differently. Oh, I know! That's exactly what's in
your mind: you do think I was wrong! So does Uncle George. I challenged him
about it the other day, and he answered just as you're answering--evaded, and
tried to be gentle! I don't care to be handled with gloves! I tell you I was
right, and I don't need any coddling by people that think I wasn't! And I
suppose you believe I was wrong not to let Morgan see her that last night when
he came here, and she--she was dying. If you do, why in the name of God did you
come and ask me? You could have taken him in! She did want to see him.
She--"
Miss
Fanny looked startled. "You think--"
"She
told me so!" And the tortured young man choked. "She said--'just
once.' She said 'I'd like to have seen him--just once!' She meant--to tell him
good-bye! That's what she meant! And you put this on me, too; you put this
responsibility on me! But I tell you, and I told Uncle George, that the
responsibility isn't all mine! If you were so sure I was wrong all the
time--when I took her away, and when I turned Morgan out--if you were so sure,
what did you let me do it for? You and Uncle George were grown people, both of
you, weren't you? You were older than I, and if you were so sure you were wiser
than I, why did you just stand around with your hands hanging down, and let me
go ahead? You could have stopped it if it was wrong, couldn't you?"
Fanny
shook her head. "No, George," she said slowly. "Nobody could
have stopped you. You were too strong, and--"
"And
what?" he demanded loudly.
"And
she loved you--too well."
George
stared at her hard, then his lower lip began to move convulsively, and he set
his teeth upon it but could not check its frantic twitching.
He
ran out of the room.
She
sat still, listening. He had plunged into his mother's room, but no sound came
to Fanny's ears after the sharp closing of the door; and presently she rose and
stepped out into the hall--but could hear nothing. The heavy black walnut door
of Isabel's room, as Fanny's troubled eyes remained fixed upon it, seemed to
become darker and vaguer; the polished wood took the distant ceiling light, at
the end of the hall, in dim reflections which became mysterious; and to Fanny's
disturbed mind the single sharp point of light on the bronze door-knob was like
a continuous sharp cry in the stillness of night. What interview was sealed
away from human eye and ear within the lonely darkness on the other side of
that door--in that darkness where Isabel's own special chairs were, and her own
special books, and the two great walnut wardrobes filled with her dresses and
wraps? What tragic argument might be there vainly striving to confute the
gentle dead? "In God's name, what else could I have done?" For his
mother's immutable silence was surely answering him as Isabel in life would
never have answered him, and he was beginning to understand how eloquent the
dead can be. They cannot stop their eloquence, no matter how they have loved
the living: they cannot choose. And so, no matter in what agony George should
cry out, "What else could I have done?" and to the end of his life no
matter how often he made that wild appeal, Isabel was doomed to answer him with
the wistful, faint murmur:
"I'd
like to have--seen him. Just--just once."
A
cheerful darkey went by the house, loudly and tunelessly whistling some broken
thoughts upon women, fried food and gin; then a group of high-school boys, returning
homeward after important initiations, were heard skylarking along the sidewalk,
rattling sticks on the fences, squawking hoarsely, and even attempting to sing
in the shocking new voices of uncompleted adolescence. For no reason, and just
as a poultry yard falls into causeless agitation, they stopped in front of the
house, and for half an hour produced the effect of a noisy multitude in full
riot.
To
the woman standing upstairs in the hall, this was almost unbearable; and she
felt that she would have to go down and call to them to stop; but she was too
timid, and after a time went back to her room, and sat at her desk again. She
left the door open, and frequently glanced out into the hall, but gradually
became once more absorbed in the figures which represented her prospective
income from her great plunge in electric lights for automobiles. She did not
hear George return to his own room.
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. . A superstitious person might have thought it unfortunate that her partner
in this speculative industry (as in Wilbur's disastrous rolling-mills) was that
charming but too haphazardous man of the world, George Amberson. He was one of
those optimists who believe that if you put money into a great many enterprises
one of them is sure to turn out a fortune, and therefore, in order to find the
lucky one, it is only necessary to go into a large enough number of them.
Altogether gallant in spirit, and beautifully game under catastrophe, he had
gone into a great many, and the unanimity of their "bad luck," as he
called it, gave him one claim to be a distinguished person, if he had no other.
In business he was ill fated with a consistency which made him, in that alone,
a remarkable man; and he declared, with some earnestness, that there was no
accounting for it except by the fact that there had been so much good luck in
his family before he was born that something had to balance it.
"You
ought to have thought of my record and stayed out," he told Fanny, one day
the next spring, when the affairs of the headlight company had begun to look
discouraging. "I feel the old familiar sinking that's attended all my
previous efforts to prove myself a business genius. I think it must be
something like the feeling an aeronaut has when his balloon bursts, and,
looking down, he sees below him the old home farm where he used to live--I mean
the feeling he'd have just before he flattened out in that same old clay
barnyard. Things do look bleak, and I'm only glad you didn't go into this
confounded thing to the extent I did."
Miss
Fanny grew pink. "But it must go right!" she protested. "We saw
with our own eyes how perfectly it worked in the shop. The light was so bright
no one could face it, and so there can't be any reason for it not to work. It
simply--"
"Oh,
you're right about that," Amberson said. "It certainly was a perfect
thing--in the shop! The only thing we didn't know was how fast an auto mobile
had to go to keep the light going. It appears that this was a matter of some
importance."
"Well,
how fast does one have to--"
"To
keep the light from going entirely out," he informed her with elaborate
deliberation, "it is computed by those enthusiasts who have bought our
product--and subsequently returned it to us and got their money back--they
compute that a motor car must maintain a speed of twenty-five miles an hour, or
else there won't be any light at all. To make the illumination bright enough to
be noticed by an approaching automobile, they state the speed must be more than
thirty miles an hour. At thirty-five, objects in the path of the light begin to
become visible; at forty they are revealed distinctly; and at fifty and above
we have a real headlight. Unfortunately many people don't care to drive that
fast at all times after dusk, especially in the traffic, or where policemen are
likely to become objectionable."
"But
think of that test on the road when we--"
"That
test was lovely," he admitted. "The inventor made us happy with his
oratory, and you and Frank Bronson and I went whirling through the night at a
speed that thrilled us. It was an intoxicating sensation: we were intoxicated
by the lights, the lights and the music. We must never forget that drive, with
the cool wind kissing our cheeks and the road lit up for miles ahead. We must
never forget it--and we never shall. It cost--"
"But
something's got to be done."
"It
has, indeed! My something would seem to be leaving my watch at my uncle's.
Luckily, you--"
The
pink of Fanny's cheeks became deeper. "But isn't that man going to do
anything to remedy it? Can't he try to--"
"He
can try," said Amberson. "He is trying, in fact. I've sat in the shop
watching him try for several beautiful afternoons, while outside the windows
all Nature was fragrant with spring and smoke. He hums ragtime to himself as he
tries, and I think his mind is wandering to something else less tedious--to
some new invention in which he'd take more interest."
"But
you mustn't let him," she cried. "You must make him keep on
trying!"
"Oh,
yes. He understands that's what I sit there for. I'll keep sitting!"
However,
in spite of the time he spent sitting in the shop, worrying the inventor of the
fractious light, Amberson found opportunity to worry himself about another
matter of business. This was the settlement of Isabel's estate.
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