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"I
may not see you again, Georgie," Amberson said; and his voice was a little
husky as he set a kind hand on the young man's shoulder. "It's quite
probable that from this time on we'll only know each other by letter--until
you're notified as my next of kin that there's an old valise to be forwarded to
you, and perhaps some dusty curios from the consulate mantelpiece. Well, it's
an odd way for us to be saying good-bye: one wouldn't have thought it, even a
few years ago, but here we are, two gentlemen of elegant appearance in a state
of bustitude. We can't ever tell what will happen at all, can we? Once I stood
where we're standing now, to say good-bye to a pretty girl--only it was in the
old station before this was built, and we called it the 'dépôt.' She'd been
visiting your mother, before Isabel was married, and I was wild about her, and
she admitted she didn't mind that. In fact, we decided we couldn't live without
each other, and we were to be married. But she had to go abroad first with her
father, and when we came to say good-bye we knew we wouldn't see each other
again for almost a year. I thought I couldn't live through it--and she stood
here crying. Well, I don't even know where she lives now, or if she is
living--and I only happen to think of her sometimes when I'm here at the
station waiting for a train. If she ever thinks of me she probably imagines I'm
still dancing in the ballroom at the Amberson Mansion, and she probably thinks
of the Mansion as still beautiful--still the finest house in town. Life and
money both behave like loose quicksilver in a nest of cracks. And when they're
gone we can't tell where--or what the devil we did with 'em! But I believe I'll
say now--while there isn't much time left for either of us to get embarrassed
about it--I believe I'll say that I've always been fond of you, Georgie, but I
can't say that I always liked you. Sometimes I've felt you were distinctly not
an acquired taste. Until lately, one had to be fond of you just naturally--this
isn't very 'tactful,' of course--for if he didn't, well, he wouldn't! We all
spoiled you terribly when you were a little boy and let you grow up en
prince--and I must say you took to it! But you've received a pretty heavy jolt,
and I had enough of your disposition, myself, at your age, to understand a
little of what cocksure youth has to go through inside when it finds that it
can make terrible mistakes. Poor old fellow! You get both kinds of jolts
together, spiritual and material--and you've taken them pretty quietly
and--well, with my train coming into the shed, you'll forgive me for saying
that there have been times when I thought you ought to be hanged--but I've
always been fond of you, and now I like you! And just for a last word: there
may be somebody else in this town who's always felt about you like that--fond
of you, I mean, no matter how much it seemed you ought to be hanged. You might
try--Hello, I must run. I'll send back the money as fast as they pay me--so,
good-bye and God bless you, Georgie!"
He
passed through the gates, waved his hat cheerily from the other side of the
iron screen, and was lost from sight in the hurrying crowd. And as he
disappeared, an unexpected poignant loneliness fell upon his nephew so heavily
and so suddenly that he had no energy to recoil from the shock. It seemed to
him that the last fragment of his familiar world had disappeared, leaving him
all alone forever.
He
walked homeward slowly through what appeared to be the strange streets of a
strange city; and, as a matter of fact, the city was strange to him. He had
seen little of it during his years in college, and then had followed the long
absence and his tragic return. Since that he had been "scarcely outdoors
at all," as Fanny complained, warning him that his health would suffer,
and he had been downtown only in a closed carriage. He had not realized the
great change.
The
streets were thunderous; a vast energy heaved under the universal coating of
dinginess. George walked through the begrimed crowds of hurrying strangers and
saw no face that he remembered. Great numbers of the faces were even of a kind
he did not remember ever to have seen; they were partly like the old type that
his boyhood knew, and partly like types he knew abroad. He saw German eyes with
American wrinkles at their corners; he saw Irish eyes and Neapolitan eyes, Roman
eyes, Tuscan eyes, eyes of Lombardy, of Savoy, Hungarian eyes, Balkan eyes,
Scandinavian eyes--all with a queer American look in them. He saw Jews who had
been German Jews, Jews who had been Russian Jews, Jews who had been Polish Jews
but were no longer German or Russian or Polish Jews. All the people were soiled
by the smoke-mist through which they hurried, under the heavy sky that hung
close upon the new skyscrapers; and nearly all seemed harried by something
impending, though here and there a woman with bundles would be laughing to a
companion about some adventure of the department stores, or perhaps an escape
from the charging traffic of the streets--and not infrequently a girl, or a
free-and-easy young matron, found time to throw an encouraging look to George.
He
took no note of these, and, leaving the crowded sidewalks, turned north into
National Avenue, and presently reached the quieter but no less begrimed region
of smaller shops and old-fashioned houses. Those latter had been the homes of
his boyhood playmates; old friends of his grandfather had lived here;--in this
alley he had fought with two boys at the same time, and whipped them; in that
front yard he bad been successfully teased into temporary insanity by a
Sunday-school class of pinky little girls. On that sagging porch a laughing
woman had fed him and other boys with doughnuts and gingerbread; yonder he saw
the staggered relics of the iron picket fence he had made his white pony jump,
on a dare, and in the shabby, stone-faced house behind the fence he had gone to
children's parties, and, when he was a little older he had danced there often,
and fallen in love with Mary Sharon, and kissed her, apparently by force, under
the stairs in the hall. The double front doors, of meaninglessly carved walnut,
once so glossily varnished, had been painted smoke gray, but the smoke grime
showed repulsively, even on the smoke gray; and over the doors a smoked sign
proclaimed the place to be a "Stag Hotel."
Other
houses had become boarding-houses too genteel for signs, but many were franker,
some offering "board by the day, week or meal," and some, more
laconic, contenting themselves with the label: "Rooms." One, having
torn out part of an old stone-trimmed bay window for purposes of commercial
display, showed forth two suspended petticoats and a pair of oyster-coloured
flannel trousers to prove the claims of its black-and-gilt sign: "French
Cleaning and Dye House." Its next neighbour also sported a remodelled
front and permitted no doubt that its mission in life was to attend cosily upon
death: "J. M. Rolsener. Caskets. The Funeral Home." And beyond that,
a plain old honest four-square gray-painted brick house was flamboyantly
decorated with a great gilt scroll on the railing of the old-fashioned veranda:
"Mutual Benefit Order Cavaliers and Dames of Purity." This was the
old Minafer house.
George
passed it without perceptibly wincing; in fact, he held his head up, and except
for his gravity of countenance and the prison pallor he had acquired by too
constantly remaining indoors, there was little to warn an acquaintance that he
was not precisely the same George Amberson Minafer known aforetime. He was
still so magnificent, indeed, that there came to his ears a waft of comment
from a passing automobile. This was a fearsome red car, glittering in brass,
with half-a-dozen young people in it whose motorism had reached an extreme
manifestation in dress. The ladies of this party were favourably affected at
sight of the pedestrian upon the sidewalk, and, as the machine was moving
slowly, and close to the curb, they had time to observe him in detail, which
they did with a frankness not pleasing to the object of their attentions.
"One sees so many nice-looking people one doesn't know nowadays,"
said the youngest of the young ladies. "This old town of ours is really
getting enormous. I shouldn't mind knowing who he is."
"I
don't know," the youth beside her said, loudly enough to be heard at a
considerable distance. "I don't know who he is, but from his looks I know
who he thinks he is: he thinks he's the Grand Duke Cuthbert!" There was a
burst of tittering as the car gathered speed and rolled away, with the girl
continuing to look back until her scandalized companions forced her to turn by
pulling her hood over her face. She made an impression upon George, so deep a
one, in fact, that he unconsciously put his emotion into a muttered word:
"Riffraff!"
This
was the last "walk home" he was ever to take by the route he was now
following: up National Avenue to Amberson Addition and the two big old houses
at the foot of Amberson Boulevard; for to-night would be the last night that he
and Fanny were to spend in the house which the Major had forgotten to deed to
Isabel. To-morrow they were to "move out," and George was to begin his
work in Bronson's office. He had not come to this collapse without a fierce
struggle--but the struggle was inward, and the rolling world was not agitated
by it, and rolled calmly on. For of all the "ideals of life" which
the world, in its rolling, inconsiderately flattens out to nothingness, the
least likely to retain a profile is that ideal which depends upon inheriting
money. George Amberson, in spite of his record of failures in business, had
spoken shrewdly when he realized at last that money, like life, was "like
quicksilver in a nest of cracks." And his nephew had the awakening
experience of seeing the great Amberson Estate vanishing into such a nest--in a
twinkling, it seemed, now that it was indeed so utterly vanished.
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