"My
mamma has a diamond ring which cost forty pounds," she said. "And it
is not a big one, either. If there were mines full of diamonds, people would be
so rich it would be ridiculous."
"Perhaps
Sara will be so rich that she will be ridiculous," giggled Jessie.
"She's
ridiculous without being rich," Lavinia sniffed.
"I
believe you hate her," said Jessie.
"No,
I don't," snapped Lavinia. "But I don't
believe in mines full of diamonds."
"Well,
people have to get them from somewhere," said Jessie. "Lavinia," with a new giggle, "what do you think
Gertrude says?"
"I
don't know, I'm sure; and I don't care if it's something more about that
everlasting Sara."
"Well,
it is. One of her 'pretends' is that she is a princess. She plays it all the
time--even in school. She says it makes her learn her lessons better. She wants
Ermengarde to be one, too, but Ermengarde
says she is too fat." "She is too fat," said Lavinia.
"And Sara is too thin."
Naturally,
Jessie giggled again.
"She
says it has nothing to do with what you look like, or what you have. It has
only to do with what you think of, and what you do."
"I
suppose she thinks she could be a princess if she was a beggar," said Lavinia. "Let us begin to call her Your Royal
Highness."
Lessons
for the day were over, and they were sitting before the schoolroom fire,
enjoying the time they liked best. It was the time when Miss Minchin and Miss
Amelia were taking their tea in the sitting room sacred to themselves. At this
hour a great deal of talking was done, and a great many secrets changed hands,
particularly if the younger pupils behaved themselves well, and did not
squabble or run about noisily, which it must be confessed they usually did.
When they made an uproar the older girls usually
interfered with scolding and shakes. They were expected to keep order, and
there was danger that if they did not, Miss Minchin or Miss Amelia would appear
and put an end to festivities. Even as Lavinia
spoke the door opened and Sara entered with Lottie,
whose habit was to trot everywhere after her like a little dog.
"There
she is, with that horrid child!" exclaimed Lavinia
in a whisper. "If she's so fond of her, why doesn't she keep her in her
own room? She will begin howling about something in five minutes."
It
happened that Lottie had been seized with a sudden
desire to play in the schoolroom, and had begged her adopted parent to come
with her. She joined a group of little ones who were playing in a corner. Sara
curled herself up in the window-seat, opened a book, and began to read. It was
a book about the French Revolution, and she was soon lost in a harrowing
picture of the prisoners in the Bastille--men who had spent so many years in
dungeons that when they were dragged out by those who rescued them, their long,
gray hair and beards almost hid their faces, and they had forgotten that an
outside world existed at all, and were like beings in a dream.
She
was so far away from the schoolroom that it was not agreeable to be dragged
back suddenly by a howl from Lottie. Never did she
find anything so difficult as to keep herself from losing her temper when she
was suddenly disturbed while absorbed in a book. People who are fond of books
know the feeling of irritation which sweeps over them at such a moment. The
temptation to be unreasonable and snappish is one not easy to manage.
"It
makes me feel as if someone had hit me," Sara had told Ermengarde
once in confidence. "And as if I want to hit back. I have to remember
things quickly to keep from saying something ill-tempered."
She
had to remember things quickly when she laid her book on the window-seat and
jumped down from her comfortable corner.
Lottie had been sliding across the schoolroom floor, and,
having first irritated Lavinia and Jessie by making a
noise, had ended by falling down and hurting her fat knee. She was screaming
and dancing up and down in the midst of a group of friends and enemies, who
were alternately coaxing and scolding her.
"Stop
this minute, you cry-baby! Stop this minute!" Lavinia
commanded.
"I'm
not a cry-baby . . . I'm not!" wailed Lottle.
"Sara, Sara!"
"If
she doesn't stop, Miss Minchin will hear her," cried Jessie. "Lottie darling, I'll give you a penny!"
"I
don't want your penny," sobbed Lottie; and she
looked down at the fat knee, and, seeing a drop of blood on it, burst forth
again.
Sara
flew across the room and, kneeling down, put her arms round her.
"Now,
Lottie," she said. "Now, Lottie, you promised Sara."
"She
said I was a cry-baby," wept Lottie.
Sara
patted her, but spoke in the steady voice Lottie
knew.
"But
if you cry, you will be one, Lottie pet. You
promised."
Lottle remembered that she had promised, but she preferred
to lift up her voice.
"I
haven't any mamma," she proclaimed.
"Yes,
you have," said Sara, cheerfully. "Have you forgotten? Don't you know
that Sara is your mamma? Don't you want Sara for your mamma?"
Lottie cuddled up to her with a consoled sniff.
"Come
and sit in the window-seat with me," Sara went on, "and I'll whisper
a story to you."
"Will
you?" whimpered Lottie. "Will
you--tell me--about the diamond mines?"
"The
diamond mines?" broke out Lavinia. "Nasty,
little spoiled thing, I should like to slap her!"
Sara
got up quickly on her feet. It must be remembered that she had been very deeply
absorbed in the book about the Bastille, and she had had to recall several
things rapidly when she realized that she must go and take care of her adopted
child. She was not an angel, and she was not fond of Lavinia.
"Well,"
she said, with some fire, "I should like to slap you--but I don't want to
slap you!" restraining herself. "At least I both want to slap
you--and I should like to slap you-- but I won't slap you. We are not little
gutter children. We are both old enough to know better."
Here
was Lavinia's opportunity.
"Ah,
yes, your royal highness," she said. "We are
princesses, I believe. At least one of us is. The school ought to be very
fashionable now Miss Minchin has a princess for a pupil."
Sara
started toward her. She looked as if she were going to box her ears. Perhaps
she was. Her trick of pretending things was the joy of her life. She never
spoke of it to girls she was not fond of. Her new "pretend" about
being a princess was very near to her heart, and she was shy and sensitive
about it. She had meant it to be rather a secret, and here was Lavinia deriding it before nearly all the school. She felt
the blood rush up into her face and tingle in her ears. She only just saved
herself. If you were a princess, you did not fly into rages. Her hand dropped,
and she stood quite still a moment. When she spoke it was in a quiet, steady
voice; she held her head up, and everybody listened to her.
"It's
true," she said. "Sometimes I do pretend I am a princess. I pretend I
am a princess, so that I can try and behave like one."
Lavinia could not think of exactly the right thing to say.
Several times she had found that she could not think of a satisfactory reply
when she was dealing with Sara. The reason for this was that, somehow, the rest
always seemed to be vaguely in sympathy with her opponent. She saw now that
they were pricking up their ears interestedly. The truth was, they liked
princesses, and they all hoped they might hear something more definite about
this one, and drew nearer Sara accordingly.
Lavinia could only invent one remark, and it fell rather
flat. "Dear me," she said, "I hope, when you ascend the throne,
you won't forget us!"
"I
won't," said Sara, and she did not utter another word, but stood quite
still, and stared at her steadily as she saw her take Jessie's arm and turn
away.
After
this, the girls who were jealous of her used to speak of her as "Princess
Sara" whenever they wished to be particularly disdainful, and those who
were fond of her gave her the name among themselves as a term of affection. No
one called her "princess" instead of "Sara," but her
adorers were much pleased with the picturesqueness
and grandeur of the title, and Miss Minchin, hearing of it, mentioned it more
than once to visiting parents, feeling that it rather suggested a sort of royal
boarding school.
To
Becky it seemed the most appropriate thing in the world. The acquaintance begun
on the foggy afternoon when she had jumped up terrified from her sleep in the comfortable
chair, had ripened and grown, though it must be confessed that Miss Minchin and
Miss Amelia knew very little about it. They were aware that Sara was
"kind" to the scullery maid, but they knew nothing of certain
delightful moments snatched perilously when, the upstairs rooms being set in
order with lightning rapidity, Sara's sitting room was reached, and the heavy
coal box set down with a sigh of joy. At such times stories were told by
installments, things of a satisfying nature were either produced and eaten or
hastily tucked into pockets to be disposed of at night, when Becky went
upstairs to her attic to bed.
"But
I has to eat 'em careful, miss," she said once;
"'cos if I leaves crumbs the rats come out to
get 'em."
"Rats!"
exclaimed Sara, in horror. "Are there rats there?"
"Lots
of 'em, miss," Becky
answered in quite a matter-of-fact manner. "There mostly is rats an' mice in attics. You gets
used to the noise they makes scuttling about. I've got so I don't mind 'em s' long as they don't run over my piller."
"Ugh!"
said Sara.
"You
gets used to anythin' after
a bit," said Becky. "You have to, miss, if
you're born a scullery maid. I'd rather have rats than cockroaches."
"So
would I," said Sara; "I suppose you might make friends with a rat in
time, but I don't believe I should like to make friends with a cockroach."
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