The
morning after the interview with Ram Dass and his
monkey, Sara was in the schoolroom with her small pupils. Having finished
giving them their lessons, she was putting the French exercise-books together
and thinking, as she did it, of the various things royal personages in disguise
were called upon to do: Alfred the Great, for instance, burning the cakes and
getting his ears boxed by the wife of the neat-herd. How frightened she must
have been when she found out what she had done. If Miss Minchin should find out
that she--Sara, whose toes were almost sticking out of her boots--was a
princess--a real one! The look in her eyes was exactly the look which Miss
Minchin most disliked. She would not have it; she was quite near her and was so
enraged that she actually flew at her and boxed her ears--exactly as the neat-
herd's wife had boxed King Alfred's. It made Sara start. She wakened from her
dream at the shock, and, catching her breath, stood still a second. Then, not
knowing she was going to do it, she broke into a little laugh.
"What
are you laughing at, you bold, impudent child?" Miss Minchin exclaimed.
It
took Sara a few seconds to control herself sufficiently to remember that she
was a princess. Her cheeks were red and smarting from the blows she had
received.
"I
was thinking," she answered.
"Beg
my pardon immediately," said Miss Minchin.
Sara
hesitated a second before she replied.
"I
will beg your pardon for laughing, if it was rude," she
said then; "but I won't beg your pardon for thinking."
"What
were you thinking?" demanded Miss Minchin.
"How
dare you think? What were you thinking?"
Jessie
tittered, and she and Lavinia nudged each other in
unison. All the girls looked up from their books to listen. Really, it always
interested them a little when Miss Minchin attacked Sara. Sara always said
something queer, and never seemed the least bit frightened. She was not in the
least frightened now, though her boxed ears were scarlet and her eyes were as
bright as stars.
"I
was thinking," she answered grandly and politely,
"that you did not know what you were doing."
"That
I did not know what I was doing?" Miss Minchin fairly gasped.
"Yes,"
said Sara, "and I was thinking what would happen if I were a princess and
you boxed my ears--what I should do to you. And I was thinking that if I were
one, you would never dare to do it, whatever I said or did. And I was thinking
how surprised and frightened you would be if you suddenly found out--"
She
had the imagined future so clearly before her eyes that she spoke in a manner
which had an effect even upon Miss Minchin. It almost seemed for the moment to
her narrow, unimaginative mind that there must be some real power hidden behind
this candid daring.
"What?"
she exclaimed. "Found out what?"
"That
I really was a princess," said Sara, "and could do anything--anything
I liked."
Every
pair of eyes in the room widened to its full limit. Lavinia
leaned forward on her seat to look.
"Go
to your room," cried Miss Minchin, breathlessly, "this instant! Leave
the schoolroom! Attend to your lessons, young ladies!"
Sara
made a little bow.
"Excuse
me for laughing if it was impolite," she said, and walked out of the room,
leaving Miss Minchin struggling with her rage, and the girls whispering over
their books.
"Did
you see her? Did you see how queer she looked?" Jessie broke out. "I
shouldn't be at all surprised if she did turn out to be something. Suppose she
should!"
The Other Side of the Wall
When
one lives in a row of houses, it is interesting to think of the things which
are being done and said on the other side of the wall of the very rooms one is
living in. Sara was fond of amusing herself by trying to imagine the things
hidden by the wall which divided the Select Seminary from the Indian
gentleman's house. She knew that the schoolroom was next to the Indian
gentleman's study, and she hoped that the wall was thick so that the noise made
sometimes after lesson hours would not disturb him.
"I
am growing quite fond of him," she said to Ermengarde;
"I should not like him to be disturbed. I have adopted him for a friend.
You can do that with people you never speak to at all. You can just watch them,
and think about them and be sorry for them, until they seem almost like
relations. I'm quite anxious sometimes when I see the doctor call twice a
day."
"I
have very few relations," said Ermengarde,
reflectively, "and I'm very glad of it. I don't like those I have. My two
aunts are always saying, 'Dear me, Ermengarde! You
are very fat. You shouldn't eat sweets,' and my uncle is always asking me
things like, 'When did Edward the Third ascend the throne?' and, 'Who died of a
surfeit of lampreys?'"
Sara
laughed.
"People
you never speak to can't ask you questions like that," she said; "and
I'm sure the Indian gentleman wouldn't even if he was quite intimate with you.
I am fond of him."
She
had become fond of the Large Family because they looked happy; but she had
become fond of the Indian gentleman because he looked unhappy. He had evidently
not fully recovered from some very severe illness. In the kitchen--where, of
course, the servants, through some mysterious means, knew everything--there was
much discussion of his case. He was not an Indian gentleman really, but an Englishman
who had lived in India. He had met with great misfortunes which had for a time
so imperilled his whole fortune that he had thought
himself ruined and disgraced forever. The shock had been so great that he had
almost died of brain fever; and ever since he had been shattered in health,
though his fortunes had changed and all his possessions had been restored to
him. His trouble and peril had been connected with mines.
"And
mines with diamonds in 'em!" said the cook.
"No savin's of mine never goes into no
mines--particular diamond ones"--with a side glance at Sara. "We all
know somethin' of them."
"He
felt as my papa felt," Sara thought. "He was ill as my papa was; but
he did not die."
So
her heart was more drawn to him than before. When she was sent out at night she
used sometimes to feel quite glad, because there was always a chance that the
curtains of the house next door might not yet be closed and she could look into
the warm room and see her adopted friend. When no one was about she used sometimes
to stop, and, holding to the iron railings, wish him good night as if he could
hear her.
"Perhaps
you can feel if you can't hear," was her fancy. "Perhaps kind
thoughts reach people somehow, even through windows and doors and walls.
Perhaps you feel a little warm and comforted, and don't know why, when I am
standing here in the cold and hoping you will get well and happy again. I am so
sorry for you," she would whisper in an intense little voice. "I wish
you had a 'Little Missus' who could pet you as I used to pet papa when he had a
headache. I should like to be your 'Little Missus' myself, poor dear! Good
night--good night. God bless you!"
She
would go away, feeling quite comforted and a little warmer herself. Her
sympathy was so strong that it seemed as if it must reach him somehow as he sat
alone in his armchair by the fire, nearly always in a great dressing gown, and
nearly always with his forehead resting in his hand as he gazed hopelessly into
the fire. He looked to Sara like a man who had a trouble on his mind still, not
merely like one whose troubles lay all in the past.
"He
always seems as if he were thinking of something that hurts him now," she
said to herself, "but he has got his money back and he will get over his
brain fever in time, so he ought not to look like that. I wonder if there is
something else."
If
there was something else--something even servants did not hear of--she could
not help believing that the father of the Large Family knew it--the gentleman
she called Mr. Montmorency. Mr. Montmorency went to see him often, and Mrs.
Montmorency and all the little Montmorencys went,
too, though less often. He seemed particularly fond of the two elder little
girls--the Janet and Nora who had been so alarmed when their small brother
Donald had given Sara his sixpence. He had, in fact, a very tender place in his
heart for all children, and particularly for little girls. Janet and Nora were
as fond of him as he was of them, and looked forward with the greatest pleasure
to the afternoons when they were allowed to cross the square and make their
well-behaved little visits to him. They were extremely decorous little visits
because he was an invalid.
"He
is a poor thing," said Janet, "and he says we cheer him up. We try to
cheer him up very quietly."
Janet
was the head of the family, and kept the rest of it in order. It was she who
decided when it was discreet to ask the Indian gentleman to tell stories about
India, and it was she who saw when was tired and it was the time to steal
quietly away and tell Ram Dass to go to him. They
were very fond of Ram Dass. He could have told any
number of stories if he had been able to speak anything but Hindustani. The
Indian gentleman's real name was Mr. Carrisford, and
Janet told Mr. Carrisford about the encounter with
the little-girl-who-was-not-a-beggar. He was very much interested, and all the
more so when he heard from Ram Dass of the adventure
of the monkey on the roof. Ram Dass made for him a
very clear picture of the attic and its desolateness--of the bare floor and
broken plaster, the rusty, empty grate, and the hard, narrow bed.
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