Yes;
there Ermengarde was when she opened the door. She
was sitting in the middle of the bed, with her feet tucked safely under her.
She had never become intimate with Melchisedec and
his family, though they rather fascinated her. When she found herself alone in
the attic she always preferred to sit on the bed until Sara arrived. She had,
in fact, on this occasion had time to become rather nervous, because Melchisedec had appeared and sniffed about a good deal, and
once had made her utter a repressed squeal by sitting up on his hind legs and,
while he looked at her, sniffing pointedly in her direction.
"Oh,
Sara," she cried out, "I am glad you have come. Melchy
would sniff about so. I tried to coax him to go back, but he wouldn't for such
a long time. I like him, you know; but it does frighten me when he sniffs right
at me. Do you think he ever would jump?"
"No,"
answered Sara.
Ermengarde crawled forward on the bed to look at her.
"You
do look tired, Sara," she said; "you are quite pale."
"I
am tired," said Sara, dropping on to the lopsided footstool. "Oh,
there's Melchisedec, poor thing. He's come to ask for
his supper."
Melchisedec had come out of his hole as if he had been
listening for her footstep. Sara was quite sure he knew it. He came forward
with an affectionate, expectant expression as Sara put her hand in her pocket
and turned it inside out, shaking her head.
"I'm
very sorry," she said. "I haven't one crumb left. Go home, Melchisedec, and tell your wife there was nothing in my
pocket. I'm afraid I forgot because the cook and Miss Minchin were so
cross."
Melchisedec seemed to understand. He shuffled resignedly,
if not contentedly, back to his home.
"I
did not expect to see you tonight, Ermie," Sara
said. Ermengarde hugged herself in the red shawl.
"Miss
Amelia has gone out to spend the night with her old aunt," she explained.
"No one else ever comes and looks into the bedrooms after we are in bed. I
could stay here until morning if I wanted to."
She
pointed toward the table under the skylight. Sara had not looked toward it as
she came in. A number of books were piled upon it. Ermengarde's
gesture was a dejected one.
"Papa
has sent me some more books, Sara," she said. "There they are."
Sara
looked round and got up at once. She ran to the table, and picking up the top
volume, turned over its leaves quickly. For the moment she forgot her
discomforts.
"Ah,"
she cried out, "how beautiful! Carlyle's French
Revolution. I have so wanted to read that!"
"I
haven't," said Ermengarde. "And papa will
be so cross if I don't. He'll expect me to know all about it when I go home for
the holidays. What shall I do?"
Sara
stopped turning over the leaves and looked at her with an excited flush on her
cheeks. "Look here," she cried, "if you'll lend me these books,
I'll read them--and tell you everything that's in them afterward--and I'll tell
it so that you will remember it, too."
"Oh,
goodness!" exclaimed Ermengarde. "Do you
think you can?"
"I
know I can," Sara answered. "The little ones always remember what I
tell them."
"Sara,"
said Ermengarde, hope gleaming in her round face,
"if you'll do that, and make me remember, I'll--I'll give you
anything."
"I
don't want you to give me anything," said Sara. "I want your books--I
want them!" And her eyes grew big, and her chest heaved.
"Take
them, then," said Ermengarde. "I wish I
wanted them--but I don't. I'm not clever, and my father is, and he thinks I
ought to be."
Sara
was opening one book after the other. "What are you going to tell your
father?" she asked, a slight doubt dawning in her mind.
"Oh,
he needn't know," answered Ermengarde.
"He'll think I've read them."
Sara
put down her book and shook her head slowly. "That's almost like telling
lies," she said. "And lies--well, you see, they are not only
wicked--they're vulgar. Sometimes"--reflectively--"I've thought
perhaps I might do something wicked--I might suddenly fly into a rage and kill
Miss Minchin, you know, when she was ill-treating me--but I couldn't be vulgar.
Why can't you tell your father I read them?"
"He
wants me to read them," said Ermengarde, a
little discouraged by this unexpected turn of affairs.
"He
wants you to know what is in them," said Sara. "And if I can tell it
to you in an easy way and make you remember it, I should think he would like
that." "He'll like it if I learn anything in any way," said
rueful Ermengarde. "You would if you were my
father."
"It's
not your fault that--" began Sara. She pulled herself up and stopped
rather suddenly. She had been going to say, "It's not your fault that you
are stupid."
"That what?" Ermengarde
asked.
"That
you can't learn things quickly," amended Sara. "If you can't, you
can't. If I can--why, I can; that's all."
She
always felt very tender of Ermengarde, and tried not
to let her feel too strongly the difference between being able to learn
anything at once, and not being able to learn anything at all. As she looked at
her plump face, one of her wise, old-fashioned thoughts came to her.
"Perhaps,"
she said, "to be able to learn things quickly isn't
everything. To be kind is worth a great deal to other people. If Miss Minchin
knew everything on earth and was like what she is now, she'd still be a
detestable thing, and everybody would hate her. Lots of clever people have done
harm and have been wicked. Look at Robespierre--"
She
stopped and examined Ermengarde's countenance, which
was beginning to look bewildered. "Don't you remember?" she demanded.
"I told you about him not long ago. I believe you've forgotten."
"Well,
I don't remember all of it," admitted Ermengarde.
"Well,
you wait a minute," said Sara, "and I'll take off my wet things and
wrap myself in the coverlet and tell you over again."
She
took off her hat and coat and hung them on a nail against the wall, and she
changed her wet shoes for an old pair of slippers. Then she jumped on the bed,
and drawing the coverlet about her shoulders, sat with her arms round her
knees. "Now, listen," she said. She plunged into the gory records of
the French Revolution, and told such stories of it that Ermengarde's
eyes grew round with alarm and she held her breath. But though she was rather
terrified, there was a delightful thrill in listening, and she was not likely
to forget Robespierre again, or to have any doubts about the Princesse de Lamballe.
"You
know they put her head on a pike and danced round it," Sara explained.
"And she had beautiful floating blonde hair; and when I think of her, I
never see her head on her body, but always on a pike, with those furious people
dancing and howling."
It
was agreed that Mr. St. John was to be told the plan they had made, and for the
present the books were to be left in the attic.
"Now
let's tell each other things," said Sara.
"How are you getting on with your French lessons?"
"Ever
so much better since the last time I came up here and you explained the
conjugations. Miss Minchin could not understand why I did my exercises so well
that first morning."
Sara
laughed a little and hugged her knees.
"She
doesn't understand why Lottie is doing her sums so
well," she said; "but it is because she creeps up here, too, and I
help her." She glanced round the room. "The attic would be rather
nice--if it wasn't so dreadful," she said, laughing again. "It's a
good place to pretend in."
The
truth was that Ermengarde did not know anything of
the sometimes almost unbearable side of life in the attic and she had not a
sufficiently vivid imagination to depict it for herself. On the rare occasions
that she could reach Sara's room she only saw the side of it which was made
exciting by things which were "pretended" and stories which were
told. Her visits partook of the character of adventures; and though sometimes
Sara looked rather pale, and it was not to be denied that she had grown very
thin, her proud little spirit would not admit of complaints. She had never
confessed that at times she was almost ravenous with hunger, as she was
tonight. She was growing rapidly, and her constant walking and running about
would have given her a keen appetite even if she had had abundant and regular
meals of a much more nourishing nature than the unappetizing, inferior food
snatched at such odd times as suited the kitchen convenience. She was growing
used to a certain gnawing feeling in her young stomach.
"I
suppose soldiers feel like this when they are on a long and weary march,"
she often said to herself. She liked the sound of the phrase, "long and
weary march." It made her feel rather like a soldier. She had also a
quaint sense of being a hostess in the attic.
"If
I lived in a castle," she argued, "and Ermengarde
was the lady of another castle, and came to see me, with knights and squires
and vassals riding with her, and pennons flying, when I heard the clarions
sounding outside the drawbridge I should go down to receive her, and I should
spread feasts in the banquet hall and call in minstrels to sing and play and
relate romances. When she comes into the attic I can't spread feasts, but I can
tell stories, and not let her know disagreeable things. I dare say poor
chatelaines had to do that in time of famine, when their lands had been
pillaged." She was a proud, brave little chatelaine, and dispensed
generously the one hospitality she could offer--the dreams she dreamed--the
visions she saw--the imaginings which were her joy and comfort.
So,
as they sat together, Ermengarde did not know that
she was faint as well as ravenous, and that while she talked she now and then
wondered if her hunger would let her sleep when she was left alone. She felt as
if she had never been quite so hungry before.
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