Then
it was Sara's turn again.
"I
will attend to you tomorrow. You shall have neither
breakfast, dinner, nor supper!"
"I
have not had either dinner or supper today, Miss Minchin," said Sara,
rather faintly.
"Then all the better. You will have something to
remember. Don't stand there. Put those things into the hamper again."
She
began to sweep them off the table into the hamper herself, and caught sight of Ermengarde's new books.
"And
you"--to Ermengarde--"have brought your
beautiful new books into this dirty attic. Take them up and go back to bed. You
will stay there all day tomorrow, and I shall write to your papa. What would he
say if he knew where you are tonight?"
Something
she saw in Sara's grave, fixed gaze at this moment made her turn on her
fiercely.
"What
are you thinking of?" she demanded. "Why do you look at me like
that?"
"I
was wondering," answered Sara, as she had answered that notable day in the
schoolroom.
"What
were you wondering?"
It
was very like the scene in the schoolroom. There was no pertness in Sara's manner.
It was only sad and quiet.
"I
was wondering," she said in a low voice, "what my papa would say if
he knew where I am tonight."
Miss
Minchin was infuriated just as she had been before and her anger expressed
itself, as before, in an intemperate fashion. She flew at her and shook her.
"You
insolent, unmanageable child!" she cried. "How dare you! How dare
you!"
She
picked up the books, swept the rest of the feast back into the hamper in a
jumbled heap, thrust it into Ermengarde's arms, and
pushed her before her toward the door.
"I
will leave you to wonder," she said. "Go to bed this instant."
And she shut the door behind herself and poor stumbling Ermengarde,
and left Sara standing quite alone.
The
dream was quite at an end. The last spark had died out of the paper in the
grate and left only black tinder; the table was left bare, the golden plates
and richly embroidered napkins, and the garlands were transformed again into
old handkerchiefs, scraps of red and white paper, and discarded artificial
flowers all scattered on the floor; the minstrels in the minstrel gallery had
stolen away, and the viols and bassoons were still. Emily was sitting with her
back against the wall, staring very hard. Sara saw her, and went and picked her
up with trembling hands.
"There
isn't any banquet left, Emily," she said. "And there isn't any
princess. There is nothing left but the prisoners in the Bastille." And
she sat down and hid her face.
What
would have happened if she had not hidden it just then, and if she had chanced
to look up at the skylight at the wrong moment, I do not know--perhaps the end
of this chapter might have been quite different--because if she had glanced at
the skylight she would certainly have been startled by what she would have seen. She would have seen exactly the same face pressed
against the glass and peering in at her as it had peered in earlier in the
evening when she had been talking to Ermengarde.
But
she did not look up. She sat with her little black head in her arms for some
time. She always sat like that when she was trying to bear something in
silence. Then she got up and went slowly to the bed.
"I
can't pretend anything else--while I am awake," she said. "There
wouldn't be any use in trying. If I go to sleep, perhaps a dream will come and
pretend for me."
She
suddenly felt so tired--perhaps through want of food--that she sat down on the
edge of the bed quite weakly.
"Suppose
there was a bright fire in the grate, with lots of little dancing flames,"
she murmured. "Suppose there was a comfortable chair before it--and
suppose there was a small table near, with a little hot--hot supper on it. And
suppose"--as she drew the thin coverings over her--"suppose this was
a beautiful soft bed, with fleecy blankets and large downy pillows.
Suppose---suppose--" And her very weariness was good to her, for her eyes
closed and she fell fast asleep.
She
did not know how long she slept. But she had been tired enough to sleep deeply
and profoundly--too deeply and soundly to be disturbed by anything, even by the
squeaks and scamperings of Melchisedec's
entire family, if all his sons and daughters had chosen to come out of their
hole to fight and tumble and play.
When
she awakened it was rather suddenly, and she did not know that any particular
thing had called her out of her sleep. The truth was, however, that it was a
sound which had called her back--a real sound--the click of the skylight as it
fell in closing after a lithe white figure which slipped through it and
crouched down close by upon the slates of the roof--just near enough to see
what happened in the attic, but not near enough to be seen.
At
first she did not open her eyes. She felt too sleepy and--curiously enough--too
warm and comfortable. She was so warm and comfortable, indeed, that she did not
believe she was really awake. She never was as warm and cozy as this except in
some lovely vision.
"What
a nice dream!" she murmured. "I feel quite warm.
I--don't--want--to--wake--up."
Of
course it was a dream. She felt as if warm, delightful bedclothes were heaped
upon her. She could actually feel blankets, and when she put out her hand it
touched something exactly like a satin-covered eider-down quilt. She must not
awaken from this delight--she must be quite still and make it last.
But
she could not--even though she kept her eyes closed tightly, she could not.
Something was forcing her to awaken--something in the room. It was a sense of
light, and a sound--the sound of a crackling, roaring little fire.
"Oh,
I am awakening," she said mournfully. "I can't help it--I
can't."
Her
eyes opened in spite of herself. And then she actually smiled--for what she saw
she had never seen in the attic before, and knew she never should see.
"Oh,
I haven't awakened," she whispered, daring to rise on her elbow and look
all about her. "I am dreaming yet." She knew it must be a dream, for
if she were awake such things could not--could not be.
Do
you wonder that she felt sure she had not come back to earth? This is what she
saw. In the grate there was a glowing, blazing fire; on the hob was a little
brass kettle hissing and boiling; spread upon the floor was a thick, warm
crimson rug; before the fire a folding-chair, unfolded, and with cushions on
it; by the chair a small folding-table, unfolded, covered with a white cloth,
and upon it spread small covered dishes, a cup, a saucer, a teapot; on the bed
were new warm coverings and a satin-covered down quilt; at the foot a curious
wadded silk robe, a pair of quilted slippers, and some books. The room of her
dream seemed changed into fairyland--and it was flooded with warm light, for a
bright lamp stood on the table covered with a rosy shade.
She
sat up, resting on her elbow, and her breathing came short and fast.
"It
does not--melt away," she panted. "Oh, I never had such a dream
before." She scarcely dared to stir; but at last she pushed the bedclothes
aside, and put her feet on the floor with a rapturous smile.
"I
am dreaming--I am getting out of bed," she heard her own voice say; and
then, as she stood up in the midst of it all, turning slowly from side to
side--"I am dreaming it stays--real! I'm dreaming it feels real. It's
bewitched--or I'm bewitched. I only think I see it all." Her words began
to hurry themselves. "If I can only keep on thinking it," she cried,
"I don't care! I don't care!"
She
stood panting a moment longer, and then cried out again.
"Oh,
it isn't true!" she said. "It can't be true! But oh, how true it
seems!"
The
blazing fire drew her to it, and she knelt down and held out her hands close to
it--so close that the heat made her start back.
"A
fire I only dreamed wouldn't be hot," she cried.
She
sprang up, touched the table, the dishes, the rug; she went to the bed and
touched the blankets. She took up the soft wadded dressing-gown, and suddenly
clutched it to her breast and held it to her cheek.
"It's
warm. It's soft!" she almost sobbed. "It's real. It must be!"
She
threw it over her shoulders, and put her feet into the slippers.
"They
are real, too. It's all real!" she cried. "I am not--I am not
dreaming!"
She
almost staggered to the books and opened the one which lay upon the top.
Something was written on the flyleaf--just a few words, and they were these:
"To the little girl in the attic. From
a friend."
When
she saw that--wasn't it a strange thing for her to do--she put her face down
upon the page and burst into tears.
"I
don't know who it is," she said; "but somebody cares for me a little.
I have a friend."
She
took her candle and stole out of her own room and into Becky's, and stood by
her bedside.
"Becky,
Becky!" she whispered as loudly as she dared. "Wake up!"
When
Becky wakened, and she sat upright staring aghast, her face still smudged with
traces of tears, beside her stood a little figure in a luxurious wadded robe of
crimson silk. The face she saw was a shining, wonderful thing. The Princess
Sara--as she remembered her--stood at her very bedside,
holding a candle in her hand.
"Come,"
she said. "Oh, Becky, come!"
Becky
was too frightened to speak. She simply got up and followed her, with her mouth
and eyes open, and without a word.
And
when they crossed the threshold, Sara shut the door gently and drew her into
the warm, glowing midst of things which made her brain reel and her hungry
senses faint. "It's true! It's true!" she cried. "I've touched
them all. They are as real as we are. The Magic has come and done it, Becky,
while we were asleep--the Magic that won't let those worst things ever quite
happen."
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