The Visitor
Imagine,
if you can, what the rest of the evening was like. How they
crouched by the fire which blazed and leaped and made so much of itself in the
little grate. How they removed the covers of the dishes, and found rich,
hot, savory soup, which was a meal in itself, and sandwiches and toast and
muffins enough for both of them. The mug from the washstand was used as Becky's
tea cup, and the tea was so delicious that it was not necessary to pretend that
it was anything but tea. They were warm and full-fed and happy, and it was just
like Sara that, having found her strange good fortune real, she should give
herself up to the enjoyment of it to the utmost. She had lived such a life of
imaginings that she was quite equal to accepting any wonderful thing that
happened, and almost to cease, in a short time, to find it bewildering.
"I
don't know anyone in the world who could have done it," she said;
"but there has been someone. And here we are sitting by their
fire--and--and--it's true! And whoever it is--wherever they are--I have a
friend, Becky--someone is my friend."
It
cannot be denied that as they sat before the blazing fire, and ate the
nourishing, comfortable food, they felt a kind of rapturous awe, and looked
into each other's eyes with something like doubt.
"Do
you think," Becky faltered once, in a whisper, "do you think it could
melt away, miss? Hadn't we better be quick?" And she hastily crammed her
sandwich into her mouth. If it was only a dream, kitchen manners would be
overlooked.
"No,
it won't melt away," said Sara. "I am eating this muffin, and I can
taste it. You never really eat things in dreams. You only think you are going
to eat them. Besides, I keep giving myself pinches; and I touched a hot piece
of coal just now, on purpose."
The
sleepy comfort which at length almost overpowered them was a heavenly thing. It
was the drowsiness of happy, well-fed childhood, and they sat in the fire glow
and luxuriated in it until Sara found herself turning to look at her transformed
bed.
There
were even blankets enough to share with Becky. The narrow couch in the next
attic was more comfortable that night than its occupant had ever dreamed that
it could be.
As
she went out of the room, Becky turned upon the threshold and looked about her
with devouring eyes.
"If
it ain't here in the mornin',
miss," she said, "it's been here tonight, anyways, an' I shan't never
forget it." She looked at each particular thing, as if to commit it to
memory. "The fire was there," pointing with her finger, "an' the
table was before it; an' the lamp was there, an' the light looked rosy red; an'
there was a satin cover on your bed, an' a warm rug on the floor, an' everythin' looked beautiful; an'"--she paused a
second, and laid her hand on her stomach tenderly--"there was soup an'
sandwiches an' muffins--there was." And, with this conviction a reality at
least, she went away.
Through
the mysterious agency which works in schools and among servants, it was quite
well known in the morning that Sara Crewe was in horrible disgrace, that Ermengarde was under punishment, and that Becky would have
been packed out of the house before breakfast, but that a scullery maid could
not be dispensed with at once. The servants knew that she was allowed to stay
because Miss Minchin could not easily find another creature helpless and humble
enough to work like a bounden slave for so few shillings a week. The elder
girls in the schoolroom knew that if Miss Minchin did not send Sara away it was
for practical reasons of her own.
"She's
growing so fast and learning such a lot, somehow," said Jessie to Lavinia, "that she will be given classes soon, and
Miss Minchin knows she will have to work for nothing. It was rather nasty of
you, Lavvy, to tell about her having fun in the garret. How did you find it
out?"
"I
got it out of Lottie. She's such a baby she didn't
know she was telling me. There was nothing nasty at all in speaking to Miss
Minchin. I felt it my duty"--priggishly. "She was being deceitful.
And it's ridiculous that she should look so grand, and be made so much of, in
her rags and tatters!"
"What
were they doing when Miss Minchin caught them?" "Pretending
some silly thing. Ermengarde had taken up her
hamper to share with Sara and Becky. She never invites us to share things. Not
that I care, but it's rather vulgar of her to share with servant girls in
attics. I wonder Miss Minchin didn't turn Sara out--even if she does want her
for a teacher."
"If
she was turned out where would she go?" inquired
Jessie, a trifle anxiously.
"How
do I know?" snapped Lavinia. "She'll look
rather queer when she comes into the schoolroom this morning, I should
think--after what's happened. She had no dinner yesterday, and she's not to
have any today."
Jessie
was not as ill-natured as she was silly. She picked up her book with a little
jerk.
"Well,
I think it's horrid," she said. "They've no right to starve her to
death."
When
Sara went into the kitchen that morning the cook looked askance at her, and so
did the housemaids; but she passed them hurriedly. She had, in fact, overslept
herself a little, and as Becky had done the same, neither had had time to see
the other, and each had come downstairs in haste.
Sara
went into the scullery. Becky was violently scrubbing a kettle, and was actually
gurgling a little song in her throat. She looked up
with a wildly elated face.
"It
was there when I wakened, miss--the blanket," she whispered excitedly.
"It was as real as it was last night."
"So
was mine," said Sara. "It is all there now--all of it. While I was
dressing I ate some of the cold things we left."
"Oh,
laws! Oh, laws!" Becky uttered the exclamation in a sort of rapturous
groan, and ducked her head over her kettle just in time, as the cook came in
from the kitchen.
Miss
Minchin had expected to see in Sara, when she appeared in the schoolroom, very
much what Lavinia had expected to see. Sara had
always been an annoying puzzle to her, because severity never made her cry or
look frightened. When she was scolded she stood still and listened politely
with a grave face; when she was punished she performed her extra tasks or went
without her meals, making no complaint or outward sign of rebellion. The very
fact that she never made an impudent answer seemed to Miss Minchin a kind of
impudence in itself. But after yesterday's deprivation of meals, the violent
scene of last night, the prospect of hunger today, she must surely have broken
down. It would be strange indeed if she did not come downstairs with pale
cheeks and red eyes and an unhappy, humbled face.
Miss
Minchin saw her for the first time when she entered the schoolroom to hear the
little French class recite its lessons and superintend its exercises. And she
came in with a springing step, color in her cheeks, and a smile hovering about
the corners of her mouth. It was the most astonishing thing Miss Minchin had
ever known. It gave her quite a shock. What was the child made of? What could
such a thing mean? She called her at once to her desk.
"You
do not look as if you realize that you are in disgrace," she said.
"Are you absolutely hardened?"
The
truth is that when one is still a child--or even if one is grown up--and has
been well fed, and has slept long and softly and warm; when one has gone to
sleep in the midst of a fairy story, and has wakened to find it real, one
cannot be unhappy or even look as if one were; and one could not, if one tried,
keep a glow of joy out of one's eyes. Miss Minchin was almost struck dumb by
the look of Sara's eyes when she made her perfectly respectful answer.
"I
beg your pardon, Miss Minchin," she said; "I know that I am in
disgrace."
"Be
good enough not to forget it and look as if you had come into a fortune. It is an impertinence. And remember you are to have no food
today."
"Yes,
Miss Minchin," Sara answered; but as she turned away her heart leaped with
the memory of what yesterday had been. "If the Magic had not saved me just
in time," she thought, "how horrible it would have been!"
"She
can't be very hungry," whispered Lavinia.
"Just look at her. Perhaps she is pretending she has had a good
breakfast"--with a spiteful laugh.
"She's
different from other people," said Jessie, watching Sara with her class.
"Sometimes I'm a bit frightened of her."
"Ridiculous
thing!" ejaculated Lavinia.
All
through the day the light was in Sara's face, and the color in her cheek. The
servants cast puzzled glances at her, and whispered to each other, and Miss
Amelia's small blue eyes wore an expression of bewilderment. What such an
audacious look of well-being, under august displeasure could mean she could not
understand. It was, however, just like Sara's singular obstinate way. She was
probably determined to brave the matter out.
One
thing Sara had resolved upon, as she thought things over. The wonders which had
happened must be kept a secret, if such a thing were possible. If Miss Minchin
should choose to mount to the attic again, of course all would be discovered.
But it did not seem likely that she would do so for some time at least, unless
she was led by suspicion. Ermengarde and Lottie would be watched with such strictness that they
would not dare to steal out of their beds again. Ermengarde
could be told the story and trusted to keep it secret. If Lottie
made any discoveries, she could be bound to secrecy also. Perhaps the Magic
itself would help to hide its own marvels. "But whatever happens,"
Sara kept saying to herself all day--"whatever happens, somewhere in the
world there is a heavenly kind person who is my friend--my friend. If I never
know who it is--if I never can even thank him--I shall never feel quite so
lonely. Oh, the Magic was good to me!"
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