Her voice had sunk almost to a whisper, and she sat clasping and unclasping her
hands about the handle of her sunshade. The young man laid his upon them with a
gentle pressure; his heart dilated with an inexpressible relief.
"My dear child--was THAT it? If you only knew the truth!"
She raised her head quickly. "Then there is a truth I don't know?"
He kept his hand over hers. "I meant, the truth about the old story you
speak of."
"But that's what I want to know, Newland--what I ought to know. I
couldn't have my happiness made out of a wrong--an unfairness--to somebody
else. And I want to believe that it would be the same with you. What sort of a
life could we build on such foundations?"
Her face had taken on a look of such tragic courage that he felt like bowing
himself down at her feet. "I've wanted to say this for a long time,"
she went on. "I've wanted to tell you that, when two people really love
each other, I understand that there may be situations which make it right that
they should--should go against public opinion. And if you feel yourself in any
way pledged . . . pledged to the person we've spoken of . . . and if there is
any way . . . any way in which you can fulfill your pledge . . . even by her
getting a divorce . . . Newland, don't give her up because of me!"
His surprise at discovering that her fears had fastened upon an episode so
remote and so completely of the past as his love-affair with Mrs. Thorley
Rushworth gave way to wonder at the generosity of her view. There was something
superhuman in an attitude so recklessly unorthodox, and if other problems had
not pressed on him he would have been lost in wonder at the prodigy of the
Wellands' daughter urging him to marry his former mistress. But he was still
dizzy with the glimpse of the precipice they had skirted, and full of a new awe
at the mystery of young-girlhood.
For a moment he could not speak; then he said: "There is no pledge--no
obligation whatever--of the kind you think. Such cases don't always--present
themselves quite as simply as . . . But that's no matter . . . I love your
generosity, because I feel as you do about those things . . . I feel that each
case must be judged individually, on its own merits . . . irrespective of
stupid conventionalities . . . I mean, each woman's right to her
liberty--" He pulled himself up, startled by the turn his thoughts had
taken, and went on, looking at her with a smile: "Since you understand so
many things, dearest, can't you go a little farther, and understand the
uselessness of our submitting to another form of the same foolish
conventionalities? If there's no one and nothing between us, isn't that an
argument for marrying quickly, rather than for more delay?"
She flushed with joy and lifted her face to his; as he bent to it he saw
that her eyes were full of happy tears. But in another moment she seemed to
have descended from her womanly eminence to helpless and timorous girlhood; and
he understood that her courage and initiative were all for others, and that she
had none for herself. It was evident that the effort of speaking had been much
greater than her studied composure betrayed, and that at his first word of
reassurance she had dropped back into the usual, as a too-adventurous child
takes refuge in its mother's arms.
Archer had no heart to go on pleading with her; he was too much disappointed
at the vanishing of the new being who had cast that one deep look at him from
her transparent eyes. May seemed to be aware of his disappointment, but without
knowing how to alleviate it; and they stood up and walked silently home.
XVII.
Your cousin the Countess called on mother while you were away," Janey
Archer announced to her brother on the evening of his return.
The young man, who was dining alone with his mother and sister, glanced up
in surprise and saw Mrs. Archer's gaze demurely bent on her plate. Mrs. Archer
did not regard her seclusion from the world as a reason for being forgotten by
it; and Newland guessed that she was slightly annoyed that he should be
surprised by Madame Olenska's visit.
"She had on a black velvet polonaise with jet buttons, and a tiny green
monkey muff; I never saw her so stylishly dressed," Janey continued.
"She came alone, early on Sunday afternoon; luckily the fire was lit in
the drawing-room. She had one of those new cardcases. She said she wanted to
know us because you'd been so good to her."
Newland laughed. "Madame Olenska always takes that tone about her
friends. She's very happy at being among her own people again."
"Yes, so she told us," said Mrs. Archer. "I must say she
seems thankful to be here."
"I hope you liked her, mother."
Mrs. Archer drew her lips together. "She certainly lays herself out to
please, even when she is calling on an old lady."
"Mother doesn't think her simple," Janey interjected, her eyes
screwed upon her brother's face.
"It's just my old-fashioned feeling; dear May is my ideal," said
Mrs. Archer.
"Ah," said her son, "they're not alike."
Archer had left St. Augustine charged with many messages for old Mrs.
Mingott; and a day or two after his return to town he called on her.
The old lady received him with unusual warmth; she was grateful to him for
persuading the Countess Olenska to give up the idea of a divorce; and when he
told her that he had deserted the office without leave, and rushed down to St.
Augustine simply because he wanted to see May, she gave an adipose chuckle and
patted his knee with her puff-ball hand.
"Ah, ah--so you kicked over the traces, did you? And I suppose Augusta
and Welland pulled long faces, and behaved as if the end of the world had come?
But little May--she knew better, I'll be bound?"
"I hoped she did; but after all she wouldn't agree to what I'd gone
down to ask for."
"Wouldn't she indeed? And what was that?"
"I wanted to get her to promise that we should be married in April.
What's the use of our wasting another year?"
Mrs. Manson Mingott screwed up her little mouth into a grimace of mimic
prudery and twinkled at him through malicious lids. "`Ask Mamma,' I
suppose-- the usual story. Ah, these Mingotts--all alike! Born in a rut, and
you can't root 'em out of it. When I built this house you'd have thought I was
moving to California! Nobody ever HAD built above Fortieth Street--no, says I,
nor above the Battery either, before Christopher Columbus discovered America.
No, no; not one of them wants to be different; they're as scared of it as the
small-pox. Ah, my dear Mr. Archer, I thank my stars I'm nothing but a vulgar
Spicer; but there's not one of my own children that takes after me but my
little Ellen." She broke off, still twinkling at him, and asked, with the
casual irrelevance of old age: "Now, why in the world didn't you marry my
little Ellen?"
Archer laughed. "For one thing, she wasn't there to be married."
"No--to be sure; more's the pity. And now it's too late; her life is
finished." She spoke with the coldblooded complacency of the aged throwing
earth into the grave of young hopes. The young man's heart grew chill, and he
said hurriedly: "Can't I persuade you to use your influence with the
Wellands, Mrs. Mingott? I wasn't made for long engagements."
Old Catherine beamed on him approvingly. "No; I can see that. You've
got a quick eye. When you were a little boy I've no doubt you liked to be
helped first." She threw back her head with a laugh that made her chins
ripple like little waves. "Ah, here's my Ellen now!" she exclaimed,
as the portieres parted behind her.
Madame Olenska came forward with a smile. Her face looked vivid and happy,
and she held out her hand gaily to Archer while she stooped to her
grandmother's kiss.
"I was just saying to him, my dear: `Now, why didn't you marry my
little Ellen?'"
Madame Olenska looked at Archer, still smiling. "And what did he
answer?"
"Oh, my darling, I leave you to find that out! He's been down to
Florida to see his sweetheart."
"Yes, I know." She still looked at him. "I went to see your
mother, to ask where you'd gone. I sent a note that you never answered, and I
was afraid you were ill."
He muttered something about leaving unexpectedly, in a great hurry, and
having intended to write to her from St. Augustine.
"And of course once you were there you never thought of me again!"
She continued to beam on him with a gaiety that might have been a studied
assumption of indifference.
"If she still needs me, she's determined not to let me see it," he
thought, stung by her manner. He wanted to thank her for having been to see his
mother, but under the ancestress's malicious eye he felt himself tonguetied and
constrained.
"Look at him--in such hot haste to get married that he took French
leave and rushed down to implore the silly girl on his knees! That's something
like a lover-- that's the way handsome Bob Spicer carried off my poor mother;
and then got tired of her before I was weaned--though they only had to wait
eight months for me! But there--you're not a Spicer, young man; luckily for you
and for May. It's only my poor Ellen that has kept any of their wicked blood;
the rest of them are all model Mingotts," cried the old lady scornfully.
Archer was aware that Madame Olenska, who had seated herself at her
grandmother's side, was still thoughtfully scrutinising him. The gaiety had
faded from her eyes, and she said with great gentleness: "Surely, Granny,
we can persuade them between us to do as he wishes."
Archer rose to go, and as his hand met Madame Olenska's he felt that she was
waiting for him to make some allusion to her unanswered letter.
"When can I see you?" he asked, as she walked with him to the door
of the room.
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