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All
this tended to draw him back into his old habits of mind. If her simplicity had
been the simplicity of pettiness he would have chafed and rebelled; but since
the lines of her character, though so few, were on the same fine mould as her
face, she became the tutelary divinity of all his old traditions and
reverences.
Such
qualities were scarcely of the kind to enliven foreign travel, though they made
her so easy and pleasant a companion; but he saw at once how they would fall
into place in their proper setting. He had no fear of being oppressed by them,
for his artistic and intellectual life would go on, as it always had, outside
the domestic circle; and within it there would be nothing small and
stifling--coming back to his wife would never be like entering a stuffy room
after a tramp in the open. And when they had children the vacant corners in
both their lives would be filled.
All
these things went through his mind during their long slow drive from Mayfair to
South Kensington, where Mrs. Carfry and her sister lived. Archer too would have
preferred to escape their friends' hospitality: in conformity with the family
tradition he had always travelled as a sight-seer and looker-on, affecting a
haughty unconsciousness of the presence of his fellowbeings. Once only, just
after Harvard, he had spent a few gay weeks at Florence with a band of queer
Europeanised Americans, dancing all night with titled ladies in palaces, and
gambling half the day with the rakes and dandies of the fashionable club; but
it had all seemed to him, though the greatest fun in the world, as unreal as a
carnival. These queer cosmopolitan women, deep in complicated love-affairs
which they appeared to feel the need of retailing to every one they met, and
the magnificent young officers and elderly dyed wits who were the subjects or
the recipients of their confidences, were too different from the people Archer
had grown up among, too much like expensive and rather malodorous hot-house
exotics, to detain his imagination long. To introduce his wife into such a
society was out of the question; and in the course of his travels no other had
shown any marked eagerness for his company.
Not
long after their arrival in London he had run across the Duke of St. Austrey,
and the Duke, instantly and cordially recognising him, had said: "Look me
up, won't you?"--but no proper-spirited American would have considered
that a suggestion to be acted on, and the meeting was without a sequel. They
had even managed to avoid May's English aunt, the banker's wife, who was still
in Yorkshire; in fact, they had purposely postponed going to London till the
autumn in order that their arrival during the season might not appear pushing
and snobbish to these unknown relatives.
"Probably
there'll be nobody at Mrs. Carfry's--London's a desert at this season, and
you've made yourself much too beautiful," Archer said to May, who sat at
his side in the hansom so spotlessly splendid in her sky-blue cloak edged with
swansdown that it seemed wicked to expose her to the London grime.
"I
don't want them to think that we dress like savages," she replied, with a
scorn that Pocahontas might have resented; and he was struck again by the
religious reverence of even the most unworldly American women for the social
advantages of dress.
"It's
their armour," he thought, "their defence against the unknown, and
their defiance of it." And he understood for the first time the
earnestness with which May, who was incapable of tying a ribbon in her hair to
charm him, had gone through the solemn rite of selecting and ordering her
extensive wardrobe.
He
had been right in expecting the party at Mrs. Carfry's to be a small one.
Besides their hostess and her sister, they found, in the long chilly
drawing-room, only another shawled lady, a genial Vicar who was her husband, a
silent lad whom Mrs. Carfry named as her nephew, and a small dark gentleman
with lively eyes whom she introduced as his tutor, pronouncing a French name as
she did so.
Into
this dimly-lit and dim-featured group May Archer floated like a swan with the
sunset on her: she seemed larger, fairer, more voluminously rustling than her
husband had ever seen her; and he perceived that the rosiness and rustlingness
were the tokens of an extreme and infantile shyness.
"What
on earth will they expect me to talk about?" her helpless eyes implored
him, at the very moment that her dazzling apparition was calling forth the same
anxiety in their own bosoms. But beauty, even when distrustful of itself,
awakens confidence in the manly heart; and the Vicar and the French-named tutor
were soon manifesting to May their desire to put her at her ease.
In
spite of their best efforts, however, the dinner was a languishing affair.
Archer noticed that his wife's way of showing herself at her ease with
foreigners was to become more uncompromisingly local in her references, so
that, though her loveliness was an encouragement to admiration, her
conversation was a chill to repartee. The Vicar soon abandoned the struggle;
but the tutor, who spoke the most fluent and accomplished English, gallantly
continued to pour it out to her until the ladies, to the manifest relief of all
concerned, went up to the drawing-room.
The
Vicar, after a glass of port, was obliged to hurry away to a meeting, and the
shy nephew, who appeared to be an invalid, was packed off to bed. But Archer
and the tutor continued to sit over their wine, and suddenly Archer found
himself talking as he had not done since his last symposium with Ned Winsett.
The Carfry nephew, it turned out, had been threatened with consumption, and had
had to leave Harrow for Switzerland, where he had spent two years in the milder
air of Lake Leman. Being a bookish youth, he had been entrusted to M. Riviere,
who had brought him back to England, and was to remain with him till he went up
to Oxford the following spring; and M. Riviere added with simplicity that he
should then have to look out for another job.
It
seemed impossible, Archer thought, that he should be long without one, so
varied were his interests and so many his gifts. He was a man of about thirty, with
a thin ugly face (May would certainly have called him common-looking) to which
the play of his ideas gave an intense expressiveness; but there was nothing
frivolous or cheap in his animation.
His
father, who had died young, had filled a small diplomatic post, and it had been
intended that the son should follow the same career; but an insatiable taste
for letters had thrown the young man into journalism, then into authorship
(apparently unsuccessful), and at length--after other experiments and vicissitudes
which he spared his listener--into tutoring English youths in Switzerland.
Before that, however, he had lived much in Paris, frequented the Goncourt
grenier, been advised by Maupassant not to attempt to write (even that seemed
to Archer a dazzling honour!), and had often talked with Merimee in his
mother's house. He had obviously always been desperately poor and anxious
(having a mother and an unmarried sister to provide for), and it was apparent
that his literary ambitions had failed. His situation, in fact, seemed,
materially speaking, no more brilliant than Ned Winsett's; but he had lived in
a world in which, as he said, no one who loved ideas need hunger mentally. As
it was precisely of that love that poor Winsett was starving to death, Archer
looked with a sort of vicarious envy at this eager impecunious young man who
had fared so richly in his poverty.
"You
see, Monsieur, it's worth everything, isn't it, to keep one's intellectual
liberty, not to enslave one's powers of appreciation, one's critical
independence? It was because of that that I abandoned journalism, and took to
so much duller work: tutoring and private secretaryship. There is a good deal
of drudgery, of course; but one preserves one's moral freedom, what we call in
French one's quant a soi. And when one hears good talk one can join in it
without compromising any opinions but one's own; or one can listen, and answer
it inwardly. Ah, good conversation--there's nothing like it, is there? The air
of ideas is the only air worth breathing. And so I have never regretted giving
up either diplomacy or journalism--two different forms of the same
self-abdication." He fixed his vivid eyes on Archer as he lit another
cigarette. "Voyez-vous, Monsieur, to be able to look life in the face: that's
worth living in a garret for, isn't it? But, after all, one must earn enough to
pay for the garret; and I confess that to grow old as a private tutor--or a
`private' anything--is almost as chilling to the imagination as a second
secretaryship at Bucharest. Sometimes I feel I must make a plunge: an immense
plunge. Do you suppose, for instance, there would be any opening for me in
America-- in New York?"
Archer
looked at him with startled eyes. New York, for a young man who had frequented
the Goncourts and Flaubert, and who thought the life of ideas the only one
worth living! He continued to stare at M. Riviere perplexedly, wondering how to
tell him that his very superiorities and advantages would be the surest
hindrance to success.
"New
York--New York--but must it be especially New York?" he stammered, utterly
unable to imagine what lucrative opening his native city could offer to a young
man to whom good conversation appeared to be the only necessity.
A
sudden flush rose under M. Riviere's sallow skin. "I--I thought it your
metropolis: is not the intellectual life more active there?" he rejoined;
then, as if fearing to give his hearer the impression of having asked a favour,
he went on hastily: "One throws out random suggestions--more to one's self
than to others. In reality, I see no immediate prospect--" and rising from
his seat he added, without a trace of constraint: "But Mrs. Carfry will
think that I ought to be taking you upstairs."
During
the homeward drive Archer pondered deeply on this episode. His hour with M.
Riviere had put new air into his lungs, and his first impulse had been to
invite him to dine the next day; but he was beginning to understand why married
men did not always immediately yield to their first impulses.
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