Nothing
could more dearly give the measure of the distance that the world had
travelled. People nowadays were too busy--busy with reforms and
"movements," with fads and fetishes and frivolities--to bother much
about their neighbours. And of what account was anybody's past, in the huge kaleidoscope
where all the social atoms spun around on the same plane?
Newland
Archer, looking out of his hotel window at the stately gaiety of the Paris
streets, felt his heart beating with the confusion and eagerness of youth.
It
was long since it had thus plunged and reared under his widening waistcoat,
leaving him, the next minute, with an empty breast and hot temples. He wondered
if it was thus that his son's conducted itself in the presence of Miss Fanny
Beaufort--and decided that it was not. "It functions as actively, no
doubt, but the rhythm is different," he reflected, recalling the cool
composure with which the young man had announced his engagement, and taken for
granted that his family would approve.
"The
difference is that these young people take it for granted that they're going to
get whatever they want, and that we almost always took it for granted that we
shouldn't. Only, I wonder--the thing one's so certain of in advance: can it
ever make one's heart beat as wildly?"
It
was the day after their arrival in Paris, and the spring sunshine held Archer
in his open window, above the wide silvery prospect of the Place Vendome. One
of the things he had stipulated--almost the only one-- when he had agreed to
come abroad with Dallas, was that, in Paris, he shouldn't be made to go to one
of the newfangled "palaces."
"Oh,
all right--of course," Dallas good-naturedly agreed. "I'll take you
to some jolly old-fashioned place-- the Bristol say--" leaving his father
speechless at hearing that the century-long home of kings and emperors was now
spoken of as an old-fashioned inn, where one went for its quaint inconveniences
and lingering local colour.
Archer
had pictured often enough, in the first impatient years, the scene of his
return to Paris; then the personal vision had faded, and he had simply tried to
see the city as the setting of Madame Olenska's life. Sitting alone at night in
his library, after the household had gone to bed, he had evoked the radiant
outbreak of spring down the avenues of horse-chestnuts, the flowers and statues
in the public gardens, the whiff of lilacs from the flower-carts, the majestic
roll of the river under the great bridges, and the life of art and study and
pleasure that filled each mighty artery to bursting. Now the spectacle was
before him in its glory, and as he looked out on it he felt shy, old-fashioned,
inadequate: a mere grey speck of a man compared with the ruthless magnificent
fellow he had dreamed of being. . . .
Dallas's
hand came down cheerily on his shoulder. "Hullo, father: this is something
like, isn't it?" They stood for a while looking out in silence, and then
the young man continued: "By the way, I've got a message for you: the
Countess Olenska expects us both at halfpast five."
He
said it lightly, carelessly, as he might have imparted any casual item of
information, such as the hour at which their train was to leave for Florence
the next evening. Archer looked at him, and thought he saw in his gay young
eyes a gleam of his great-grandmother Mingott's malice.
"Oh,
didn't I tell you?" Dallas pursued. "Fanny made me swear to do three
things while I was in Paris: get her the score of the last Debussy songs, go to
the Grand-Guignol and see Madame Olenska. You know she was awfully good to
Fanny when Mr. Beaufort sent her over from Buenos Ayres to the Assomption.
Fanny hadn't any friends in Paris, and Madame Olenska used to be kind to her
and trot her about on holidays. I believe she was a great friend of the first
Mrs. Beaufort's. And she's our cousin, of course. So I rang her up this
morning, before I went out, and told her you and I were here for two days and
wanted to see her."
Archer
continued to stare at him. "You told her I was here?"
"Of
course--why not?" Dallas's eye brows went up whimsically. Then, getting no
answer, he slipped his arm through his father's with a confidential pressure.
"I
say, father: what was she like?"
Archer
felt his colour rise under his son's unabashed gaze. "Come, own up: you
and she were great pals, weren't you? Wasn't she most awfully lovely?"
"Lovely?
I don't know. She was different."
"Ah--there
you have it! That's what it always comes to, doesn't it? When she comes, SHE'S
DIFFERENT--and one doesn't know why. It's exactly what I feel about
Fanny."
His
father drew back a step, releasing his arm. "About Fanny? But, my dear
fellow--I should hope so! Only I don't see--"
"Dash
it, Dad, don't be prehistoric! Wasn't she-- once--your Fanny?"
Dallas
belonged body and soul to the new generation. He was the first-born of Newland
and May Archer, yet it had never been possible to inculcate in him even the
rudiments of reserve. "What's the use of making mysteries? It only makes
people want to nose 'em out," he always objected when enjoined to
discretion. But Archer, meeting his eyes, saw the filial light under their
banter.
"My
Fanny?"
"Well,
the woman you'd have chucked everything for: only you didn't," continued
his surprising son.
"I
didn't," echoed Archer with a kind of solemnity.
"No:
you date, you see, dear old boy. But mother said--"
"Your
mother?"
"Yes:
the day before she died. It was when she sent for me alone--you remember? She
said she knew we were safe with you, and always would be, because once, when
she asked you to, you'd given up the thing you most wanted."
Archer
received this strange communication in silence. His eyes remained unseeingly
fixed on the thronged sunlit square below the window. At length he said in a
low voice: "She never asked me."
"No.
I forgot. You never did ask each other anything, did you? And you never told
each other anything. You just sat and watched each other, and guessed at what
was going on underneath. A deaf-and-dumb asylum, in fact! Well, I back your
generation for knowing more about each other's private thoughts than we ever
have time to find out about our own.--I say, Dad," Dallas broke off,
"you're not angry with me? If you are, let's make it up and go and lunch
at Henri's. I've got to rush out to Versailles afterward."
Archer
did not accompany his son to Versailles. He preferred to spend the afternoon in
solitary roamings through Paris. He had to deal all at once with the packed
regrets and stifled memories of an inarticulate lifetime.
After
a little while he did not regret Dallas's indiscretion. It seemed to take an
iron band from his heart to know that, after all, some one had guessed and
pitied. . . . And that it should have been his wife moved him indescribably.
Dallas, for all his affectionate insight, would not have understood that. To
the boy, no doubt, the episode was only a pathetic instance of vain
frustration, of wasted forces. But was it really no more? For a long time
Archer sat on a bench in the Champs Elysees and wondered, while the stream of
life rolled by. . . .
A
few streets away, a few hours away, Ellen Olenska waited. She had never gone
back to her husband, and when he had died, some years before, she had made no
change in her way of living. There was nothing now to keep her and Archer
apart--and that afternoon he was to see her.
He
got up and walked across the Place de la Concorde and the Tuileries gardens to
the Louvre. She had once told him that she often went there, and he had a fancy
to spend the intervening time in a place where he could think of her as perhaps
having lately been. For an hour or more he wandered from gallery to gallery
through the dazzle of afternoon light, and one by one the pictures burst on him
in their half-forgotten splendour, filling his soul with the long echoes of
beauty. After all, his life had been too starved. . . .
Suddenly,
before an effulgent Titian, he found himself saying: "But I'm only
fifty-seven--" and then he turned away. For such summer dreams it was too
late; but surely not for a quiet harvest of friendship, of comradeship, in the
blessed hush of her nearness.
He
went back to the hotel, where he and Dallas were to meet; and together they
walked again across the Place de la Concorde and over the bridge that leads to
the Chamber of Deputies.
Dallas,
unconscious of what was going on in his father's mind, was talking excitedly
and abundantly of Versailles. He had had but one previous glimpse of it, during
a holiday trip in which he had tried to pack all the sights he had been
deprived of when he had had to go with the family to Switzerland; and tumultuous
enthusiasm and cock-sure criticism tripped each other up on his lips.
As
Archer listened, his sense of inadequacy and inexpressiveness increased. The
boy was not insensitive, he knew; but he had the facility and self-confidence that
came of looking at fate not as a master but as an equal. "That's it: they
feel equal to things--they know their way about," he mused, thinking of
his son as the spokesman of the new generation which had swept away all the old
landmarks, and with them the signposts and the danger-signal.
Suddenly
Dallas stopped short, grasping his father's arm. "Oh, by Jove," he
exclaimed.
They
had come out into the great tree-planted space before the Invalides. The dome
of Mansart floated ethereally above the budding trees and the long grey front
of the building: drawing up into itself all the rays of afternoon light, it
hung there like the visible symbol of the race's glory.
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