`As a matter of fact,' said the lean and freckled Tommy Dukes, who looked
much more Irish than May, who was pale and rather fat: `As a matter of fact,
Hammond, you have a strong property instinct, and a strong will to
self-assertion, and you want success. Since I've been in the army definitely,
I've got out of the way of the world, and now I see how inordinately strong the
craving for self-assertion and success is in men. It is enormously
overdeveloped. All our individuality has run that way. And of course men like
you think you'll get through better with a woman's backing. That's why you're
so jealous. That's what sex is to you...a vital little dynamo between you and
Julia, to bring success. If you began to be unsuccessful you'd begin to flirt,
like Charlie, who isn't successful. Married people like you and Julia have
labels on you, like travellers' trunks. Julia is labelled Mrs Arnold B.
Hammond--just like a trunk on the railway that belongs to somebody. And you
are labelled Arnold B. Hammond, c/o Mrs Arnold B. Hammond. Oh, you're
quite right, you're quite right! The life of the mind needs a comfortable house
and decent cooking. You're quite right. It even needs posterity. But it all
hinges on the instinct for success. That is the pivot on which all things
turn.'
Hammond looked rather piqued. He was rather proud of the integrity of his
mind, and of his not being a time-server. None the less, he did want
success.
`It's quite true, you can't live without cash,' said May. `You've got to
have a certain amount of it to be able to live and get along...even to be free
to think you must have a certain amount of money, or your stomach stops
you. But it seems to me you might leave the labels off sex. We're free to talk
to anybody; so why shouldn't we be free to make love to any woman who inclines
us that way?'
`There speaks the lascivious Celt,' said Clifford.
`Lascivious! well, why not--? I can't see I do a woman any more harm by
sleeping with her than by dancing with her...or even talking to her about the
weather. It's just an interchange of sensations instead of ideas, so why not?'
`Be as promiscuous as the rabbits!' said Hammond.
`Why not? What's wrong with rabbits? Are they any worse than a neurotic,
revolutionary humanity, full of nervous hate?'
`But we're not rabbits, even so,' said Hammond.
`Precisely! I have my mind: I have certain calculations to make in certain
astronomical matters that concern me almost more than life or death. Sometimes
indigestion interferes with me. Hunger would interfere with me disastrously. In
the same way starved sex interferes with me. What then?'
`I should have thought sexual indigestion from surfeit would have interfered
with you more seriously,' said Hammond satirically.
`Not it! I don't over-eat myself and I don't over-fuck myself. One has a
choice about eating too much. But you would absolutely starve me.'
`Not at all! You can marry.'
`How do you know I can? It may not suit the process of my mind. Marriage
might...and would...stultify my mental processes. I'm not properly pivoted that
way...and so must I be chained in a kennel like a monk? All rot and funk, my
boy. I must live and do my calculations. I need women sometimes. I refuse to
make a mountain of it, and I refuse anybody's moral condemnation or
prohibition. I'd be ashamed to see a woman walking around with my name-label on
her, address and railway station, like a wardrobe trunk.'
These two men had not forgiven each other about the Julia flirtation.
`It's an amusing idea, Charlie,' said Dukes, `that sex is just another form
of talk, where you act the words instead of saying them. I suppose it's quite
true. I suppose we might exchange as many sensations and emotions with women as
we do ideas about the weather, and so on. Sex might be a sort of normal
physical conversation between a man and a woman. You don't talk to a woman
unless you have ideas in common: that is you don't talk with any interest. And
in the same way, unless you had some emotion or sympathy in common with a woman
you wouldn't sleep with her. But if you had...'
`If you have the proper sort of emotion or sympathy with a woman, you
ought to sleep with her,' said May. `It's the only decent thing, to go
to bed with her. Just as, when you are interested talking to someone, the Only
decent thing is to have the talk out. You don't prudishly put your tongue
between your teeth and bite it. You just say out your say. And the same the
other way.'
`No,' said Hammond. `It's wrong. You, for example, May, you squander half
your force with women. You'll never really do what you should do, with a fine
mind such as yours. Too much of it goes the other way.'
`Maybe it does...and too little of you goes that way, Hammond, my boy,
married or not. You can keep the purity and integrity of your mind, but it's
going damned dry. Your pure mind is going as dry as fiddlesticks, from what I
see of it. You're simply talking it down.'
Tommy Dukes burst into a laugh.
`Go it, you two minds!' he said. `Look at me...I don't do any high and pure
mental work, nothing but jot down a few ideas. And yet I neither marry nor run
after women. I think Charlie's quite right; if he wants to run after the women,
he's quite free not to run too often. But I wouldn't prohibit him from running.
As for Hammond, he's got a property instinct, so naturally the straight road
and the narrow gate are right for him. You'll see he'll be an English Man of
Letters before he's done. A.B.C. from top to toe. Then there's me. I'm nothing.
Just a squib. And what about you, Clifford? Do you think sex is a dynamo to
help a man on to success in the world?'
Clifford rarely talked much at these times. He never held forth; his ideas
were really not vital enough for it, he was too confused and emotional. Now he
blushed and looked uncomfortable.
`Well!' he said, `being myself hors de combat, I don't see I've
anything to say on the matter.'
`Not at all,' said Dukes; `the top of you's by no means hors de combat. You've
got the life of the mind sound and intact. So let us hear your ideas.'
`Well,' stammered Clifford, `even then I don't suppose I have much idea...I
suppose marry-and-have-done-with-it would pretty well stand for what I think.
Though of course between a man and woman who care for one another, it is a
great thing.'
`What sort of great thing?' said Tommy.
`Oh...it perfects the intimacy,' said Clifford, uneasy as a woman in such
talk.
`Well, Charlie and I believe that sex is a sort of communication like
speech. Let any woman start a sex conversation with me, and it's natural for me
to go to bed with her to finish it, all in due season. Unfortunately no woman
makes any particular start with me, so I go to bed by myself; and am none the
worse for it...I hope so, anyway, for how should I know? Anyhow I've no starry
calculations to be interfered with, and no immortal works to write. I'm merely
a fellow skulking in the army...'
Silence fell. The four men smoked. And Connie sat there and put another
stitch in her sewing...Yes, she sat there! She had to sit mum. She had to be
quiet as a mouse, not to interfere with the immensely important speculations of
these highly-mental gentlemen. But she had to be there. They didn't get on so
well without her; their ideas didn't flow so freely. Clifford was much more
hedgy and nervous, he got cold feet much quicker in Connie's absence, and the
talk didn't run. Tommy Dukes came off best; he was a little inspired by her
presence. Hammond she didn't really like; he seemed so selfish in a mental way.
And Charles May, though she liked something about him, seemed a little
distasteful and messy, in spite of his stars.
How many evenings had Connie sat and listened to the manifestations of these
four men! these, and one or two others. That they never seemed to get anywhere
didn't trouble her deeply. She liked to hear what they had to say, especially
when Tommy was there. It was fun. Instead of men kissing you, and touching you
with their bodies, they revealed their minds to you. It was great fun! But what
cold minds!
And also it was a little irritating. She had more respect for Michaelis, on
whose name they all poured such withering contempt, as a little mongrel
arriviste, and uneducated bounder of the worst sort. Mongrel and bounder or
not, he jumped to his own conclusions. He didn't merely walk round them with
millions of words, in the parade of the life of the mind.
Connie quite liked the life of the mind, and got a great thrill out of it.
But she did think it overdid itself a little. She loved being there, amidst the
tobacco smoke of those famous evenings of the cronies, as she called them
privately to herself. She was infinitely amused, and proud too, that even their
talking they could not do, without her silent presence. She had an immense
respect for thought...and these men, at least, tried to think honestly. But
somehow there was a cat, and it wouldn't jump. They all alike talked at
something, though what it was, for the life of her she couldn't say. It was
something that Mick didn't clear, either.
But then Mick wasn't trying to do anything, but just get through his life,
and put as much across other people as they tried to put across him. He was
really anti-social, which was what Clifford and his cronies had against him.
Clifford and his cronies were not anti-social; they were more or less bent on
saving mankind, or on instructing it, to say the least.
There was a gorgeous talk on Sunday evening, when the conversation drifted
again to love.
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