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`She doesn't want to, but she knows she must. Mother died of cancer, brought
on by fretting. We're not running any risks.'
So next day Clifford suggested Mrs Bolton, Tevershall parish nurse.
Apparently Mrs Betts had thought of her. Mrs Bolton was just retiring from her
parish duties to take up private nursing jobs. Clifford had a queer dread of
delivering himself into the hands of a stranger, but this Mrs Bolton had once
nursed him through scarlet fever, and he knew her.
The two sisters at once called on Mrs Bolton, in a newish house in a row,
quite select for Tevershall. They found a rather good-looking woman of
forty-odd, in a nurse's uniform, with a white collar and apron, just making
herself tea in a small crowded sitting-room.
Mrs Bolton was most attentive and polite, seemed quite nice, spoke with a
bit of a broad slur, but in heavily correct English, and from having bossed the
sick colliers for a good many years, had a very good opinion of herself, and a
fair amount of assurance. In short, in her tiny way, one of the governing class
in the village, very much respected.
`Yes, Lady Chatterley's not looking at all well! Why, she used to be that
bonny, didn't she now? But she's been failing all winter! Oh, it's hard, it is.
Poor Sir Clifford! Eh, that war, it's a lot to answer for.'
And Mrs Bolton would come to Wragby at once, if Dr Shardlow would let her
off. She had another fortnight's parish nursing to do, by rights, but they
might get a substitute, you know.
Hilda posted off to Dr Shardlow, and on the following Sunday Mrs Bolton
drove up in Leiver's cab to Wragby with two trunks. Hilda had talks with her;
Mrs Bolton was ready at any moment to talk. And she seemed so young! The way
the passion would flush in her rather pale cheek. She was forty-seven.
Her husband, Ted Bolton, had been killed in the pit, twenty-two years ago,
twenty-two years last Christmas, just at Christmas time, leaving her with two
children, one a baby in arms. Oh, the baby was married now, Edith, to a young
man in Boots Cash Chemists in Sheffield. The other one was a schoolteacher in
Chesterfield; she came home weekends, when she wasn't asked out somewhere.
Young folks enjoyed themselves nowadays, not like when she, Ivy Bolton, was
young.
Ted Bolton was twenty-eight when lie was killed in an explosion down th'
pit. The butty in front shouted to them all to lie down quick, there were four
of them. And they all lay down in time, only Ted, and it killed him. Then at
the inquiry, on the masters' side they said Ted had been frightened, and trying
to run away, and not obeying orders, so it was like his fault really. So the
compensation was only three hundred pounds, and they made out as if it was more
of a gift than legal compensation, because it was really the man's own fault.
And they wouldn't let her have the money down; she wanted to have a little
shop. But they said she'd no doubt squander it, perhaps in drink! So she had to
draw it thirty shillings a week. Yes, she had to go every Monday morning down
to the offices, and stand there a couple of hours waiting her turn; yes, for
almost four years she went every Monday. And what could she do with two little
children on her hands? But Ted's mother was very good to her. When the baby
could toddle she'd keep both the children for the day, while she, Ivy Bolton,
went to Sheffield, and attended classes in ambulance, and then the fourth year
she even took a nursing course and got qualified. She was determined to be
independent and keep her children. So she was assistant at Uthwaite hospital,
just a little place, for a while. But when the Company, the Tevershall Colliery
Company, really Sir Geoffrey, saw that she could get on by herself, they were
very good to her, gave her the parish nursing, and stood by her, she would say
that for them. And she'd done it ever since, till now it was getting a bit much
for her; she needed something a bit lighter, there was such a lot of traipsing
around if you were a district nurse.
`Yes, the Company's been very good to me, I always say it. But I
should never forget what they said about Ted, for he was as steady and fearless
a chap as ever set foot on the cage, and it was as good as branding him a
coward. But there, he was dead, and could say nothing to none of 'em.'
It was a queer mixture of feelings the woman showed as she talked. She liked
the colliers, whom she had nursed for so long; but she felt very superior to
them. She felt almost upper class; and at the same time a resentment against
the ruling class smouldered in her. The masters! In a dispute between masters
and men, she was always for the men. But when there was no question of contest,
she was pining to be superior, to be one of the upper class. The upper classes
fascinated her, appealing to her peculiar English passion for superiority. She
was thrilled to come to Wragby; thrilled to talk to Lady Chatterley, my word,
different from the common colliers' wives! She said so in so many words. Yet
one could see a grudge against the Chatterleys peep out in her; the grudge
against the masters.
`Why, yes, of course, it would wear Lady Chatterley out! It's a mercy she
had a sister to come and help her. Men don't think, high and low-alike, they
take what a woman does for them for granted. Oh, I've told the colliers off
about it many a time. But it's very hard for Sir Clifford, you know, crippled
like that. They were always a haughty family, standoffish in a way, as they've
a right to be. But then to be brought down like that! And it's very hard on
Lady Chatterley, perhaps harder on her. What she misses! I only had Ted three
years, but my word, while I had him I had a husband I could never forget. He
was one in a thousand, and jolly as the day. Who'd ever have thought he'd get
killed? I don't believe it to this day somehow, I've never believed it, though
I washed him with my own hands. But he was never dead for me, he never was. I
never took it in.'
This was a new voice in Wragby, very new for Connie to hear; it roused a new
ear in her.
For the first week or so, Mrs Bolton, however, was very quiet at Wragby, her
assured, bossy manner left her, and she was nervous. With Clifford she was shy,
almost frightened, and silent. He liked that, and soon recovered his
self-possession, letting her do things for him without even noticing her.
`She's a useful nonentity!' he said. Connie opened her eyes in wonder, but
she did not contradict him. So different are impressions on two different
people!
And he soon became rather superb, somewhat lordly with the nurse. She had
rather expected it, and he played up without knowing. So susceptible we are to
what is expected of us! The colliers had been so like children, talking to her,
and telling her what hurt them, while she bandaged them, or nursed them. They
had always made her feel so grand, almost super-human in her administrations.
Now Clifford made her feel small, and like a servant, and she accepted it
without a word, adjusting herself to the upper classes.
She came very mute, with her long, handsome face, and downcast eyes, to
administer to him. And she said very humbly: `Shall I do this now, Sir
Clifford? Shall I do that?'
`No, leave it for a time. I'll have it done later.'
`Very well, Sir Clifford.'
`Come in again in half an hour.'
`Very well, Sir Clifford.'
`And just take those old papers out, will you?'
`Very well, Sir Clifford.'
She went softly, and in half an hour she came softly again. She was bullied,
but she didn't mind. She was experiencing the upper classes. She neither
resented nor disliked Clifford; he was just part of a phenomenon, the
phenomenon of the high-class folks, so far unknown to her, but now to be known.
She felt more at home with Lady Chatterley, and after all it's the mistress of
the house matters most.
Mrs Bolton helped Clifford to bed at night, and slept across the passage
from his room, and came if he rang for her in the night. She also helped him in
the morning, and soon valeted him completely, even shaving him, in her soft,
tentative woman's way. She was very good and competent, and she soon knew how
to have him in her power. He wasn't so very different from the colliers after
all, when you lathered his chin, and softly rubbed the bristles. The
stand-offishness and the lack of frankness didn't bother her; she was having a
new experience.
Clifford, however, inside himself, never quite forgave Connie for giving up
her personal care of him to a strange hired woman. It killed, he said to
himself, the real flower of the intimacy between him and her. But Connie didn't
mind that. The fine flower of their intimacy was to her rather like an orchid,
a bulb stuck parasitic on her tree of life, and producing, to her eyes, a
rather shabby flower.
Now she had more time to herself she could softly play the piano, up in her
room, and sing: `Touch not the nettle, for the bonds of love are ill to loose.'
She had not realized till lately how ill to loose they were, these bonds of
love. But thank Heaven she had loosened them! She was so glad to be alone, not
always to have to talk to him. When he was alone he tapped-tapped-tapped on a
typewriter, to infinity. But when he was not `working', and she was there, he
talked, always talked; infinite small analysis of people and motives, and
results, characters and personalities, till now she had had enough. For years
she had loved it, until she had enough, and then suddenly it was too much. She
was thankful to be alone.
It was as if thousands and thousands of little roots and threads of
consciousness in him and her had grown together into a tangled mass, till they
could crowd no more, and the plant was dying. Now quietly, subtly, she was
unravelling the tangle of his consciousness and hers, breaking the threads
gently, one by one, with patience and impatience to get clear. But the bonds of
such love are more ill to loose even than most bonds; though Mrs Bolton's
coming had been a great help.
But he still wanted the old intimate evenings of talk with Connie: talk or
reading aloud. But now she could arrange that Mrs Bolton should come at ten to
disturb them. At ten o'clock Connie could go upstairs and be alone. Clifford
was in good hands with Mrs Bolton.
Mrs Bolton ate with Mrs Betts in the housekeeper's room, since they were all
agreeable. And it was curious how much closer the servants' quarters seemed to
have come; right up to the doors of Clifford's study, when before they were so
remote. For Mrs Betts would sometimes sit in Mrs Bolton's room, and Connie
heard their lowered voices, and felt somehow the strong, other vibration of the
working people almost invading the sitting-room, when she and Clifford were
alone. So changed was Wragby merely by Mrs Bolton's coming.
And Connie felt herself released, in another world, she felt she breathed
differently. But still she was afraid of how many of her roots, perhaps mortal
ones, were tangled with Clifford's. Yet still, she breathed freer, a new phase
was going to begin in her life.
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