`Why, it's Lady Chatterley! Why!' And Mrs Flint's eyes glowed again, and she
flushed like a young girl. `Bell, Bell. Why! barking at Lady Chatterley! Bell!
Be quiet!' She darted forward and slashed at the dog with a white cloth she
held in her hand, then came forward to Connie.
`She used to know me,' said Connie, shaking hands. The Flints were
Chatterley tenants.
`Of course she knows your Ladyship! She's just showing off,' said Mrs Flint,
glowing and looking up with a sort of flushed confusion, `but it's so long
since she's seen you. I do hope you are better.'
`Yes thanks, I'm all right.'
`We've hardly seen you all winter. Will you come in and look at the baby?'
`Well!' Connie hesitated. `Just for a minute.'
Mrs Flint flew wildly in to tidy up, and Connie came slowly after her,
hesitating in the rather dark kitchen where the kettle was boiling by the fire.
Back came Mrs Flint.
`I do hope you'll excuse me,' she said. `Will you come in here?'
They went into the living-room, where a baby was sitting on the rag hearth
rug, and the table was roughly set for tea. A young servant-girl backed down
the passage, shy and awkward.
The baby was a perky little thing of about a year, with red hair like its
father, and cheeky pale-blue eyes. It was a girl, and not to be daunted. It sat
among cushions and was surrounded with rag dolls and other toys in modern
excess.
`Why, what a dear she is!' said Connie, `and how she's grown! A big girl! A
big girl!'
She had given it a shawl when it was born, and celluloid ducks for
Christmas.
`There, Josephine! Who's that come to see you? Who's this, Josephine? Lady
Chatterley--you know Lady Chatterley, don't you?'
The queer pert little mite gazed cheekily at Connie. Ladyships were still
all the same to her.
`Come! Will you come to me?' said Connie to the baby.
The baby didn't care one way or another, so Connie picked her up and held
her in her lap. How warm and lovely it was to hold a child in one's lap, and
the soft little arms, the unconscious cheeky little legs.
`I was just having a rough cup of tea all by myself. Luke's gone to market,
so I can have it when I like. Would you care for a cup, Lady Chatterley? I
don't suppose it's what you're used to, but if you would...'
Connie would, though she didn't want to be reminded of what she was used to.
There was a great relaying of the table, and the best cups brought and the best
tea-pot.
`If only you wouldn't take any trouble,' said Connie.
But if Mrs Flint took no trouble, where was the fun! So Connie played with
the child and was amused by its little female dauntlessness, and got a deep
voluptuous pleasure out of its soft young warmth. Young life! And so fearless!
So fearless, because so defenceless. All the other people, so narrow with fear!
She had a cup of tea, which was rather strong, and very good bread and
butter, and bottled damsons. Mrs Flint flushed and glowed and bridled with
excitement, as if Connie were some gallant knight. And they had a real female
chat, and both of them enjoyed it.
`It's a poor little tea, though,' said Mrs Flint.
`It's much nicer than at home,' said Connie truthfully.
`Oh-h!' said Mrs Flint, not believing, of course.
But at last Connie rose.
`I must go,' she said. `My husband has no idea where I am. He'll be
wondering all kinds of things.'
`He'll never think you're here,' laughed Mrs Flint excitedly. `He'll be
sending the crier round.'
`Goodbye, Josephine,' said Connie, kissing the baby and ruffling its red,
wispy hair.
Mrs Flint insisted on opening the locked and barred front door. Connie
emerged in the farm's little front garden, shut in by a privet hedge. There
were two rows of auriculas by the path, very velvety and rich.
`Lovely auriculas,' said Connie.
`Recklesses, as Luke calls them,' laughed Mrs Flint. `Have some.'
And eagerly she picked the velvet and primrose flowers.
`Enough! Enough!' said Connie.
They came to the little garden gate.
`Which way were you going?' asked Mrs Flint.
`By the Warren.'
`Let me see! Oh yes, the cows are in the gin close. But they're not up yet.
But the gate's locked, you'll have to climb.'
`I can climb,' said Connie.
`Perhaps I can just go down the close with you.'
They went down the poor, rabbit-bitten pasture. Birds were whistling in wild
evening triumph in the wood. A man was calling up the last cows, which trailed
slowly over the path-worn pasture.
`They're late, milking, tonight,' said Mrs Flint severely. `They know Luke
won't be back till after dark.'
They came to the fence, beyond which the young fir-wood bristled dense.
There was a little gate, but it was locked. In the grass on the inside stood a
bottle, empty.
`There's the keeper's empty bottle for his milk,' explained Mrs Flint. `We
bring it as far as here for him, and then he fetches it himself'
`When?' said Connie.
`Oh, any time he's around. Often in the morning. Well, goodbye Lady
Chatterley! And do come again. It was so lovely having you.'
Connie climbed the fence into the narrow path between the dense, bristling
young firs. Mrs Flint went running back across the pasture, in a sun-bonnet,
because she was really a schoolteacher. Constance didn't like this dense new
part of the wood; it seemed gruesome and choking. She hurried on with her head down,
thinking of the Flints' baby. It was a dear little thing, but it would be a bit
bow-legged like its father. It showed already, but perhaps it would grow out of
it. How warm and fulfilling somehow to have a baby, and how Mrs Flint had
showed it off! She had something anyhow that Connie hadn't got, and apparently
couldn't have. Yes, Mrs Flint had flaunted her motherhood. And Connie had been
just a bit, just a little bit jealous. She couldn't help it.
She started out of her muse, and gave a little cry of fear. A man was there.
It was the keeper. He stood in the path like Balaam's ass, barring her way.
`How's this?' he said in surprise.
`How did you come?' she panted.
`How did you? Have you been to the hut?'
`No! No! I went to Marehay.'
He looked at her curiously, searchingly, and she hung her head a little
guiltily.
`And were you going to the hut now?' he asked rather sternly. `No! I
mustn't. I stayed at Marehay. No one knows where I am. I'm late. I've got to
run.'
`Giving me the slip, like?' he said, with a faint ironic smile. `No! No. Not
that. Only--'
`Why, what else?' he said. And he stepped up to her and put his arms around
her. She felt the front of his body terribly near to her, and alive.
`Oh, not now, not now,' she cried, trying to push him away.
`Why not? It's only six o'clock. You've got half an hour. Nay! Nay! I want
you.'
He held her fast and she felt his urgency. Her old instinct was to fight for
her freedom. But something else in her was strange and inert and heavy. His
body was urgent against her, and she hadn't the heart any more to fight.
He looked around.
`Come--come here! Through here,' he said, looking penetratingly into the
dense fir-trees, that were young and not more than half-grown.
He looked back at her. She saw his eyes, tense and brilliant, fierce, not
loving. But her will had left her. A strange weight was on her limbs. She was
giving way. She was giving up.
He led her through the wall of prickly trees, that were difficult to come
through, to a place where was a little space and a pile of dead boughs. He
threw one or two dry ones down, put his coat and waistcoat over them, and she
had to lie down there under the boughs of the tree, like an animal, while he
waited, standing there in his shirt and breeches, watching her with haunted
eyes. But still he was provident--he made her lie properly, properly. Yet he
broke the band of her underclothes, for she did not help him, only lay inert.
He too had bared the front part of his body and she felt his naked flesh
against her as he came into her. For a moment he was still inside her, turgid
there and quivering. Then as he began to move, in the sudden helpless orgasm,
there awoke in her new strange thrills rippling inside her. Rippling, rippling,
rippling, like a flapping overlapping of soft flames, soft as feathers, running
to points of brilliance, exquisite, exquisite and melting her all molten
inside. It was like bells rippling up and up to a culmination. She lay
unconscious of the wild little cries she uttered at the last. But it was over
too soon, too soon, and she could no longer force her own conclusion with her
own activity. This was different, different. She could do nothing. She could no
longer harden and grip for her own satisfaction upon him. She could only wait,
wait and moan in spirit as she felt him withdrawing, withdrawing and
contracting, coming to the terrible moment when he would slip out of her and be
gone. Whilst all her womb was open and soft, and softly clamouring, like a
sea-anemone under the tide, clamouring for him to come in again and make a
fulfilment for her. She clung to him unconscious iii passion, and he never
quite slipped from her, and she felt the soft bud of him within her stirring,
and strange rhythms flushing up into her with a strange rhythmic growing
motion, swelling and swelling till it filled all her cleaving consciousness,
and then began again the unspeakable motion that was not really motion, but
pure deepening whirlpools of sensation swirling deeper and deeper through all
her tissue and consciousness, till she was one perfect concentric fluid of
feeling, and she lay there crying in unconscious inarticulate cries. The voice
out of the uttermost night, the life! The man heard it beneath him with a kind
of awe, as his life sprang out into her. And as it subsided, he subsided too
and lay utterly still, unknowing, while her grip on him slowly relaxed, and she
lay inert. And they lay and knew nothing, not even of each other, both lost.
Till at last he began to rouse and become aware of his defenceless nakedness,
and she was aware that his body was loosening its clasp on her. He was coming
apart; but in her breast she felt she could not bear him to leave her
uncovered. He must cover her now for ever.
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