And she knew the thought of their separation was latent in both their minds,
and at last she was sad.
She sat on his thighs, her head against his breast, and her ivory-gleaming
legs loosely apart, the fire glowing unequally upon them. Sitting with his head
dropped, he looked at the folds of her body in the fire-glow, and at the fleece
of soft brown hair that hung down to a point between her open thighs. He
reached to the table behind, and took up her bunch of flowers, still so wet
that drops of rain fell on to her.
`Flowers stops out of doors all weathers,' he said. `They have no houses.'
`Not even a hut!' she murmured.
With quiet fingers he threaded a few forget-me-not flowers in the fine brown
fleece of the mound of Venus.
`There!' he said. `There's forget-me-nots in the right place!'
She looked down at the milky odd little flowers among the brown maiden-hair
at the lower tip of her body.
`Doesn't it look pretty!' she said.
`Pretty as life,' he replied.
And he stuck a pink campion-bud among the hair.
`There! That's me where you won't forget me! That's Moses in the
bull-rushes.'
`You don't mind, do you, that I'm going away?' she asked wistfully, looking
up into his face.
But his face was inscrutable, under the heavy brows. He kept it quite blank.
`You do as you wish,' he said.
And he spoke in good English.
`But I won't go if you don't wish it,' she said, clinging to him.
There was silence. He leaned and put another piece of wood on the fire. The
flame glowed on his silent, abstracted face. She waited, but he said nothing.
`Only I thought it would be a good way to begin a break with Clifford. I do
want a child. And it would give me a chance to, to--,' she resumed.
`To let them think a few lies,' he said.
`Yes, that among other things. Do you want them to think the truth?'
`I don't care what they think.'
`I do! I don't want them handling me with their unpleasant cold minds, not
while I'm still at Wragby. They can think what they like when I'm finally gone.'
He was silent.
`But Sir Clifford expects you to come back to him?'
`Oh, I must come back,' she said: and there was silence.
`And would you have a child in Wragby?' he asked.
She closed her arm round his neck.
`If you wouldn't take me away, I should have to,' she said.
`Take you where to?'
`Anywhere! away! But right away from Wragby.'
`When?'
`Why, when I come back.'
`But what's the good of coming back, doing the thing twice, if you're once
gone?' he said.
`Oh, I must come back. I've promised! I've promised so faithfully. Besides,
I come back to you, really.'
`To your husband's game-keeper?'
`I don't see that that matters,' she said.
`No?' He mused a while. `And when would you think of going away again, then;
finally? When exactly?'
`Oh, I don't know. I'd come back from Venice. And then we'd prepare
everything.'
`How prepare?'
`Oh, I'd tell Clifford. I'd have to tell him.'
`Would you!'
He remained silent. She put her arms round his neck.
`Don't make it difficult for me,' she pleaded.
`Make what difficult?'
`For me to go to Venice and arrange things.'
A little smile, half a grin, flickered on his face.
`I don't make it difficult,' he said. `I only want to find out just what you
are after. But you don't really know yourself. You want to take time: get away
and look at it. I don't blame you. I think you're wise. You may prefer to stay
mistress of Wragby. I don't blame you. I've no Wragbys to offer. In fact, you
know what you'll get out of me. No, no, I think you're right! I really do! And
I'm not keen on coming to live on you, being kept by you. There's that too.'
She felt somehow as if he were giving her tit for tat.
`But you want me, don't you?' she asked.
`Do you want me?'
`You know I do. That's evident.'
`Quite! And when do you want me?'
`You know we can arrange it all when I come back. Now I'm out of breath with
you. I must get calm and clear.'
`Quite! Get calm and clear!'
She was a little offended.
`But you trust me, don't you?' she said.
`Oh, absolutely!'
She heard the mockery in his tone.
`Tell me then,' she said flatly; `do you think it would be better if I don't
go to Venice?'
`I'm sure it's better if you do go to Venice,' he replied in the cool,
slightly mocking voice.
`You know it's next Thursday?' she said.
`Yes!'
She now began to muse. At last she said:
`And we shall know better where we are when I come back, shan't we?'
`Oh surely!'
The curious gulf of silence between them!
`I've been to the lawyer about my divorce,' he said, a little constrainedly.
She gave a slight shudder.
`Have you!' she said. `And what did he say?'
`He said I ought to have done it before; that may be a difficulty. But since
I was in the army, he thinks it will go through all right. If only it doesn't
bring her down on my head!'
`Will she have to know?'
`Yes! she is served with a notice: so is the man she lives with, the
co-respondent.'
`Isn't it hateful, all the performances! I suppose I'd have to go through it
with Clifford.'
There was a silence.
`And of course,' he said, `I have to live an exemplary life for the next six
or eight months. So if you go to Venice, there's temptation removed for a week
or two, at least.'
`Am I temptation!' she said, stroking his face. `I'm so glad I'm temptation
to you! Don't let's think about it! You frighten me when you start thinking:
you roll me out flat. Don't let's think about it. We can think so much when we
are apart. That's the whole point! I've been thinking, I must come to you for
another night before I go. I must come once more to the cottage. Shall I
come on Thursday night?'
`Isn't that when your sister will be there?'
`Yes! But she said we would start at tea-time. So we could start at
tea-time. But she could sleep somewhere else and I could sleep with you.
`But then she'd have to know.'
`Oh, I shall tell her. I've more or less told her already. I must talk it
all over with Hilda. She's a great help, so sensible.'
He was thinking of her plan.
`So you'd start off from Wragby at tea-time, as if you were going to London?
Which way were you going?'
`By Nottingham and Grantham.'
`And then your sister would drop you somewhere and you'd walk or drive back
here? Sounds very risky, to me.'
`Does it? Well, then, Hilda could bring me back. She could sleep at
Mansfield, and bring me back here in the evening, and fetch me again in the
morning. It's quite easy.'
`And the people who see you?'
`I'll wear goggles and a veil.'
He pondered for some time.
`Well,' he said. `You please yourself as usual.'
`But wouldn't it please you?'
`Oh yes! It'd please me all right,' he said a little grimly. `I might as
well smite while the iron's hot.'
`Do you know what I thought?' she said suddenly. `It suddenly came to me.
You are the ``Knight of the Burning Pestle''!'
`Ay! And you? Are you the Lady of the Red-Hot Mortar?'
`Yes!' she said. `Yes! You're Sir Pestle and I'm Lady Mortar.'
`All right, then I'm knighted. John Thomas is Sir John, to your Lady Jane.'
`Yes! John Thomas is knighted! I'm my-lady-maiden-hair, and you must have
flowers too. Yes!'
She threaded two pink campions in the bush of red-gold hair above his penis.
`There!' she said. `Charming! Charming! Sir John!'
And she pushed a bit of forget-me-not in the dark hair of his breast.
`And you won't forget me there, will you?' She kissed him on the breast, and
made two bits of forget-me-not lodge one over each nipple, kissing him again.
`Make a calendar of me!' he said. He laughed, and the flowers shook from his
breast.
`Wait a bit!' he said.
He rose, and opened the door of the hut. Flossie, lying in the porch, got up
and looked at him.
`Ay, it's me!' he said.
The rain had ceased. There was a wet, heavy, perfumed stillness. Evening was
approaching.
He went out and down the little path in the opposite direction from the
riding. Connie watched his thin, white figure, and it looked to her like a
ghost, an apparition moving away from her.
When she could see it no more, her heart sank. She stood in the door of the
hut, with a blanket round her, looking into the drenched, motionless silence.
But he was coming back, trotting strangely, and carrying flowers. She was a
little afraid of him, as if he were not quite human. And when he came near, his
eyes looked into hers, but she could not understand the meaning.
He had brought columbines and campions, and new-mown hay, and oak-tufts and
honeysuckle in small bud. He fastened fluffy young oak-sprays round her
breasts, sticking in tufts of bluebells and campion: and in her navel he poised
a pink campion flower, and in her maiden-hair were forget-me-nots and woodruff.
`That's you in all your glory!' he said. `Lady Jane, at her wedding with
John Thomas.'
And he stuck flowers in the hair of his own body, and wound a bit of
creeping-jenny round his penis, and stuck a single bell of a hyacinth in his
navel. She watched him with amusement, his odd intentness. And she pushed a
campion flower in his moustache, where it stuck, dangling under his nose.
`This is John Thomas marryin' Lady Jane,' he said. `An' we mun let Constance
an' Oliver go their ways. Maybe--'
He spread out his hand with a gesture, and then he sneezed, sneezing away
the flowers from his nose and his navel. He sneezed again.
`Maybe what?' she said, waiting for him to go on.
He looked at her a little bewildered.
`Eh?' he said.
`Maybe what? Go on with what you were going to say,' she insisted.
`Ay, what was I going to say?'
He had forgotten. And it was one of the disappointments of her life, that he
never finished.
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