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We too have had our mild local excitement. It appears the truant wife of
Mellors, the keeper, turned up at the cottage and found herself unwelcome. He
packed her off, and locked the door. Report has it, however, that when he
returned from the wood he found the no longer fair lady firmly established in
his bed, in puris naturalibus; or one should say, in impuris
naturalibus. She had broken a window and got in that way. Unable to evict
the somewhat man-handled Venus from his couch, he beat a retreat and retired,
it is said, to his mother's house in Tevershall. Meanwhile the Venus of Stacks
Gate is established in the cottage, which she claims is her home, and Apollo,
apparently, is domiciled in Tevershall.
I repeat this from hearsay, as Mellors has not come to me personally. I had
this particular bit of local garbage from our garbage bird, our ibis, our
scavenging turkey-buzzard, Mrs Bolton. I would not have repeated it had she not
exclaimed: her Ladyship will go no more to the wood if thatwoman's going
to be about!
I like your picture of Sir Malcolm striding into the sea with white hair
blowing and pink flesh glowing. I envy you that sun. Here it rains. But I don't
envy Sir Malcolm his inveterate mortal carnality. However, it suits his age.
Apparently one grows more carnal and more mortal as one grows older. Only youth
has a taste of immortality--
This news affected Connie in her state of semi-stupefied ell being with
vexation amounting to exasperation. Now she ad got to be bothered by that beast
of a woman! Now she must start and fret! She had no letter from Mellors. They
had agreed not to write at all, but now she wanted to hear from him personally.
After all, he was the father of the child that was coming. Let him write!
But how hateful! Now everything was messed up. How foul those low people
were! How nice it was here, in the sunshine and the indolence, compared to that
dismal mess of that English Midlands! After all, a clear sky was almost the
most important thing in life.
She did not mention the fact of her pregnancy, even to Hilda. She wrote to
Mrs Bolton for exact information.
Duncan Forbes, an artist friend of theirs, had arrived at the Villa
Esmeralda, coming north from Rome. Now he made a third in the gondola, and he
bathed with them across the lagoon, and was their escort: a quiet, almost
taciturn young man, very advanced in his art.
She had a letter from Mrs Bolton:
You will be pleased, I am sure, my Lady, when you see Sir Clifford. He's
looking quite blooming and working very hard, and very hopeful. Of course he is
looking forward to seeing you among us again. It is a dull house without my
Lady, and we shall all welcome her presence among us once more.
About Mr Mellors, I don't know how much Sir Clifford told you. It seems his
wife came back all of a sudden one afternoon, and he found her sitting on the
doorstep when he came in from the wood. She said she was come back to him and
wanted to live with him again, as she was his legal wife, and he wasn't going
to divorce her. But he wouldn't have anything to do with her, and wouldn't let
her in the house, and did not go in himself; he went back into the wood without
ever opening the door.
But when he came back after dark, he found the house broken into, so he went
upstairs to see what she'd done, and he found her in bed without a rag on her.
He offered her money, but she said she was his wife and he must take her back.
I don't know what sort of a scene they had. His mother told me about it, she's
terribly upset. Well, he told her he'd die rather than ever live with her
again, so he took his things and went straight to his mother's on Tevershall
hill. He stopped the night and went to the wood next day through the park,
never going near the cottage. It seems he never saw his wife that day. But the
day after she was at her brother Pan's at Beggarlee, swearing and carrying on,
saying she was his legal wife, and that he'd beers having women at the cottage,
because she'd found a scent-bottle in his drawer, and gold-tipped cigarette-ends
on the ash-heap, and I don't know what all. Then it seems the postman Fred Kirk
says he heard somebody talking in Mr Mellors' bedroom early one morning, and a
motor-car had been in the lane.
Mr Mellors stayed on with his mother, and went to the wood through the park,
and it seems she stayed on at the cottage. Well, there was no end of talk. So
at last Mr Mellors and Tom Phillips went to the cottage and fetched away most
of the furniture and bedding, and unscrewed the handle of the pump, so she was
forced to go. But instead of going back to Stacks Gate she went and lodged with
that Mrs Swain at Beggarlee, because her brother Dan's wife wouldn't have her.
And she kept going to old Mrs Mellors' house, to catch him, and she began
swearing he'd got in bed with her in the cottage and she went to a lawyer to
make him pay her an allowance. She's grown heavy, and more common than ever,
and as strong as a bull. And she goes about saying the most awful things about
him, how he has women at the cottage, and how he behaved to her when they were
married, the low, beastly things he did to her, and I don't know what all. I'm
sure it's awful, the mischief a woman can do, once she starts talking. And no
matter how low she may be, there'll be some as will believe her, and some of
the dirt will stick. I'm sure the way she makes out that Mr Mellors was one of
those low, beastly men with women, is simply shocking. And people are only too
ready to believe things against anybody, especially things like that. She declared
she'll never leave him alone while he lives. Though what I say is, if he was so
beastly to her, why is she so anxious to go back to him? But of course she's
coming near her change of life, for she's years older than he is. And these
common, violent women always go partly insane whets the change of life comes
upon them--
This was a nasty blow to Connie. Here she was, sure as life, coming in for
her share of the lowness and dirt. She felt angry with him for not having got
clear of a Bertha Coutts: nay, for ever having married her. Perhaps he had a
certain hankering after lowness. Connie remembered the last night she had spent
with him, and shivered. He had known all that sensuality, even with a Bertha
Coutts! It was really rather disgusting. It would be well to be rid of him,
clear of him altogether. He was perhaps really common, really low.
She had a revulsion against the whole affair, and almost envied the Guthrie
girls their gawky inexperience and crude maidenliness. And she now dreaded the
thought that anybody would know about herself and the keeper. How unspeakably
humiliating! She was weary, afraid, and felt a craving for utter
respectability, even for the vulgar and deadening respectability of the Guthrie
girls. If Clifford knew about her affair, how unspeakably humiliating! She was
afraid, terrified of society and its unclean bite. She almost wished she could
get rid of the child again, and be quite clear. In short, she fell into a state
of funk.
As for the scent-bottle, that was her own folly. She had not been able to
refrain from perfuming his one or two handkerchiefs and his shirts in the
drawer, just out of childishness, and she had left a little bottle of Coty's
Wood-violet perfume, half empty, among his things. She wanted him to remember
her in the perfume. As for the cigarette-ends, they were Hilda's.
She could not help confiding a little in Duncan Forbes. She didn't say she
had been the keeper's lover, she only said she liked him, and told Forbes the
history of the man.
`Oh,' said Forbes, `you'll see, they'll never rest till they've pulled the
man down and done him its. If he has refused to creep up into the middle
classes, when he had a chance; and if he's a man who stands up for his own sex,
then they'll do him in. It's the one thing they won't let you be, straight and
open in your sex. You can be as dirty as you like. In fact the more dirt you do
on sex the better they like it. But if you believe in your own sex, and won't
have it done dirt to: they'll down you. It's the one insane taboo left: sex as
a natural and vital thing. They won't have it, and they'll kill you before
they'll let you have it. You'll see, they'll hound that man down. And what's he
done, after all? If he's made love to his wife all ends on, hasn't he a right
to? She ought to be proud of it. But you see, even a low bitch like that turns
on him, and uses the hyena instinct of the mob against sex, to pull him down.
You have a snivel and feel sinful or awful about your sex, before you're
allowed to have any. Oh, they'll hound the poor devil down.'
Connie had a revulsion in the opposite direction now. What had he done,
after all? what had he done to herself, Connie, but give her an exquisite
pleasure and a sense of freedom and life? He had released her warm, natural
sexual flow. And for that they would hound him down.
No no, it should not be. She saw the image of him, naked white with tanned
face and hands, looking down and addressing his erect penis as if it were
another being, the odd grin flickering on his face. And she heard his voice
again: Tha's got the nicest woman's arse of anybody! And she felt his hand
warmly and softly closing over her tail again, over her secret places, like a
benediction. And the warmth ran through her womb, and the little flames
flickered in her knees, and she said: Oh, no! I mustn't go back on it! I must
not go back on him. I must stick to him and to what I had of him, through
everything. I had no warm, flamy life till he gave it me. And I won't go back
on it.
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