"But where will you go? What will you do?"
"Oh, something. Consider that in four years I have been lawyer,
politician, swordsman, and buffoon - especially the latter. There is always a
place in the world for Scaramouche. Besides, do you know that unlike
Scaramouche I have been oddly provident? I am the owner of a little farm in
Saxony. I think that agriculture might suit me. It is a meditative occupation;
and when all is said, I am not a man of action. I haven't the qualities for the
part."
She looked up into his face, and there was a wistful smile in her deep blue
eyes.
"Is there any part for which you have not the qualities, I
wonder?"
"Do you really? Yet you cannot say that I have made a success of any of
those which I have played. I have always ended by running away. I am running
away now from a thriving fencing-academy, which is likely to become the
property of Le Duc. That comes of having gone into politics, from which I am
also running away. It is the one thing in which I really excel. That, too, is
an attribute of Scaramouche."
"Why will you always be deriding yourself?" she wondered.
"Because I recognize myself for part of this mad world, I suppose. You
wouldn't have me take it seriously? I should lose my reason utterly if I did;
especially since discovering my parents."
"Don't, Andre!" she begged him. "You are insincere, you
know."
"Of course I am. Do you expect sincerity in man when hypocrisy is the
very keynote of human nature? We are nurtured on it; we are schooled in it, we
live by it; and we rarely realize it. You have seen it rampant and out of hand
in France during the past four years - cant and hypocrisy on the lips of the
revolutionaries, cant and hypocrisy on the lips of the upholders of the old
regime; a riot of hypocrisy out of which in the end is begotten chaos. And I
who criticize it all on this beautiful God-given morning am the rankest and
most contemptible hypocrite of all. It was this - the realization of this truth
kept me awake all night. For two years I have persecuted by every means in my
power... M. de La Tour d'Azyr."
He paused before uttering the name, paused as if hesitating how to speak of
him.
"And in those two years I have deceived myself as to the motive that
was spurring me. He spoke of me last night as the evil genius of his life, and
himself he recognized the justice of this. It may be that he was right, and
because of that it is probable that even had he not killed Philippe de
Vilmorin, things would still have been the same. Indeed, to-day I know that
they must have been. That is why I call myself a hypocrite, a poor, self-duping
hypocrite."
"But why, Andre?"
He stood still and looked at her. "Because he sought you, Aline.
Because in that alone he must have found me ranged against him, utterly
intransigeant. Because of that I must have strained every nerve to bring him
down - so as to save you from becoming the prey of your own ambition.
"I wish to speak of him no more than I must. After this, I trust never
to speak of him again. Before the lines of our lives crossed, I knew him for
what he was, I knew the report of him that ran the countryside. Even then I
found him detestable. You heard him allude last night to the unfortunate La
Binet. You heard him plead, in extenuation of his fault, his mode of life, his
rearing. To that there is no answer, I suppose. He conforms to type. Enough!
But to me, he was the embodiment of evil, just as you have always been the
embodiment of good; he was the embodiment of sin, just as you are the
embodiment of purity. I had enthroned you so high, Aline, so high, and yet no
higher than your place. Could I, then, suffer that you should be dragged down
by ambition, could I suffer the evil I detested to mate with the good I loved? What
could have come of it but your own damnation, as I told you that day at
Gavrillac? Because of that my detestation of him became a personal, active
thing. I resolved to save you at all costs from a fate so horrible. Had you
been able to tell me that you loved him it would have been different. I should
have hoped that in a union sanctified by love you would have raised him to your
own pure heights. But that out of considerations of worldly advancement you
should lovelessly consent to mate with him... Oh, it was vile and hopeless. And
so I fought him - a rat fighting a lion - fought him relentlessly until I saw
that love had come to take in your heart the place of ambition. Then I
desisted."
"Until you saw that love had taken the place of ambition!" Tears
had been gathering in her eyes whilst he was speaking. Now amazement eliminated
her emotion. "But when did you see that? When?"
"I - I was mistaken. I know it now. Yet, at the time... surely, Aline,
that morning when you came to beg me not to keep my engagement with him in the
Bois, you were moved by concern for him?"
"For him! It was concern for you," she cried, without thinking
what she said.
But it did not convince him. "For me? When you knew - when all the
world knew what I had been doing daily for a week!"
"Ah, but he, he was different from the others you had met. His
reputation stood high. My uncle accounted him invincible; he persuaded me that
if you met nothing could save you."
He looked at her frowning.
"Why this, Aline?" he asked her with some sternness. "I can
understand that, having changed since then, you should now wish to disown those
sentiments. It is a woman's way, I suppose."
"Oh, what are you saying, Andre? How wrong you are! It is the truth I
have told you!"
"And was it concern for me," he asked her, "that laid you
swooning when you saw him return wounded from the meeting? That was what opened
my eyes."
"Wounded? I had not seen his wound. I saw him sitting alive and
apparently unhurt in his caleche, and I concluded that he had killed you as he
had said he would. What else could I conclude?"
He saw light, dazzling, blinding, and it scared him. He fell back, a hand to
his brow. "And that was why you fainted?" he asked incredulously.
She looked at him without answering. As she began to realize how much she
had been swept into saying by her eagerness to make him realize his error, a
sudden fear came creeping into her eyes.
He held out both hands to her.
"Aline! Aline!" His voice broke on the name. "It was I...
"
"0 blind Andre, it was always you - always! Never, never did I think of
him, not even for loveless marriage, save once for a little while, when... when
that theatre girl came into your life, and then... " She broke off,
shrugged, and turned her head away. "I thought of following ambition,
since there was nothing left to follow."
He shook himself. "I am dreaming, of course, or else I am mad," he
said.
"Blind, Andre; just blind," she assured him.
"Blind only where it would have been presumption to have seen."
"And yet," she answered him with a flash of the Aline he had known
of old, "I have never found you lack presumption."
M. de Kercadiou, emerging a moment later from the library window, beheld
them holding hands and staring each at the other, beatifically, as if each saw
Paradise in the other's face.
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