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So we stayed where we was. The duke he
fretted and sweated around, and was in a mighty sour way. He scolded us for
everything, and we couldn't seem to do nothing right; he found fault with every
little thing. Something was a-brewing, sure. I was good and glad when midday
come and no king; we could have a change, anyway -- and maybe a chance for THE
chance on top of it. So me and the duke went up to the village, and hunted
around there for the king, and by and by we found him in the back room of a little
low doggery, very tight, and a lot of loafers bullyragging him for sport, and
he a-cussing and a-threatening with all his might, and so tight he couldn't
walk, and couldn't do nothing to them. The duke he begun to abuse him for an
old fool, and the king begun to sass back, and the minute they was fairly at it
I lit out and shook the reefs out of my hind legs, and spun down the river road
like a deer, for I see our chance; and I made up my mind that it would be a
long day before they ever see me and Jim again. I got down there all out of
breath but loaded up with joy, and sung out:
"Set her loose, Jim! we're all right
now!"
But there warn't no answer, and nobody come
out of the wigwam. Jim was gone! I set up a shout -- and then another -- and
then another one; and run this way and that in the woods, whooping and
screeching; but it warn't no use -- old Jim was gone. Then I set down and
cried; I couldn't help it. But I couldn't set still long. Pretty soon I went
out on the road, trying to think what I better do, and I run across a boy
walking, and asked him if he'd seen a strange nigger dressed so and so, and he
says:
"Yes."
"Whereabouts?" says I.
"Down to Silas Phelps' place, two mile
below here. He's a runaway nigger, and they've got him. Was you looking for
him?"
"You bet I ain't! I run across him in
the woods about an hour or two ago, and he said if I hollered he'd cut my
livers out -- and told me to lay down and stay where I was; and I done it. Been
there ever since; afeard to come out."
"Well," he says, "you
needn't be afeard no more, becuz they've got him. He run off f'm down South,
som'ers."
"It's a good job they got him."
"Well, I RECKON! There's two hunderd
dollars reward on him. It's like picking up money out'n the road."
"Yes, it is -- and I could a had it if
I'd been big enough; I see him FIRST. Who nailed him?"
"It was an old fellow -- a stranger --
and he sold out his chance in him for forty dollars, becuz he's got to go up
the river and can't wait. Think o' that, now! You bet I'D wait, if it was seven
year."
"That's me, every time," says I.
"But maybe his chance ain't worth no more than that, if he'll sell it so
cheap. Maybe there's something ain't straight about it."
"But it IS, though -- straight as a
string. I see the handbill myself. It tells all about him, to a dot -- paints
him like a picture, and tells the plantation he's frum, below NewrLEANS.
No-sirree-BOB, they ain't no trouble 'bout THAT speculation, you bet you. Say,
gimme a chaw tobacker, won't ye?"
I didn't have none, so he left. I went to
the raft, and set down in the wigwam to think. But I couldn't come to nothing.
I thought till I wore my head sore, but I couldn't see no way out of the
trouble. After all this long journey, and after all we'd done for them
scoundrels, here it was all come to nothing, everything all busted up and
ruined, because they could have the heart to serve Jim such a trick as that,
and make him a slave again all his life, and amongst strangers, too, for forty
dirty dollars.
Once I said to myself it would be a
thousand times better for Jim to be a slave at home where his family was, as
long as he'd GOT to be a slave, and so I'd better write a letter to Tom Sawyer
and tell him to tell Miss Watson where he was. But I soon give up that notion
for two things: she'd be mad and disgusted at his rascality and ungratefulness
for leaving her, and so she'd sell him straight down the river again; and if
she didn't, everybody naturally despises an ungrateful nigger, and they'd make
Jim feel it all the time, and so he'd feel ornery and disgraced. And then think
of ME! It would get all around that Huck Finn helped a nigger to get his
freedom; and if I was ever to see anybody from that town again I'd be ready to
get down and lick his boots for shame. That's just the way: a person does a
low-down thing, and then he don't want to take no consequences of it. Thinks as
long as he can hide, it ain't no disgrace. That was my fix exactly. The more I
studied about this the more my conscience went to grinding me, and the more wicked
and low-down and ornery I got to feeling. And at last, when it hit me all of a
sudden that here was the plain hand of Providence slapping me in the face and
letting me know my wickedness was being watched all the time from up there in
heaven,whilst I was stealing a poor old woman's nigger that hadn't ever done me
no harm, and now was showing me there's One that's always on the lookout, and
ain't agoing to allow no such miserable doings to go only just so fur and no
further, I most dropped in my tracks I was so scared. Well, I tried the best I
could to kinder soften it up somehow for myself by saying I was brung up
wicked, and so I warn't so much to blame; but something inside of me kept
saying, "There was the Sunday-school, you could a gone to it; and if you'd
a done it they'd a learnt you there that people that acts as I'd been acting
about that nigger goes to everlasting fire."
It made me shiver. And I about made up my
mind to pray, and see if I couldn't try to quit being the kind of a boy I was
and be better. So I kneeled down. But the words wouldn't come. Why wouldn't
they? It warn't no use to try and hide it from Him. Nor from ME, neither. I
knowed very well why they wouldn't come. It was because my heart warn't right;
it was because I warn't square; it was because I was playing double. I was
letting ON to give up sin, but away inside of me I was holding on to the
biggest one of all. I was trying to make my mouth SAY I would do the right
thing and the clean thing, and go and write to that nigger's owner and tell
where he was; but deep down in me I knowed it was a lie, and He knowed it. You
can't pray a lie -- I found that out.
So I was full of trouble, full as I could
be; and didn't know what to do. At last I had an idea; and I says, I'll go and
write the letter -- and then see if I can pray. Why, it was astonishing, the
way I felt as light as a feather right straight off, and my troubles all gone.
So I got a piece of paper and a pencil, all glad and excited, and set down and
wrote:
Miss Watson, your runaway nigger Jim is
down here two mile below Pikesville, and Mr. Phelps has got him and he will
give him up for the reward if you send.
HUCK FINN.
I felt good and all washed clean of sin for
the first time I had ever felt so in my life, and I knowed I could pray now.
But I didn't do it straight off, but laid the paper down and set there thinking
-- thinking how good it was all this happened so, and how near I come to being
lost and going to hell. And went on thinking. And got to thinking over our trip
down the river; and I see Jim before me all the time: in the day and in the
night-time, sometimes moonlight, sometimes storms, and we a-floating along,
talking and singing and laughing. But somehow I couldn't seem to strike no
places to harden me against him, but only the other kind. I'd see him standing
my watch on top of his'n, 'stead of calling me, so I could go on sleeping; and
see him how glad he was when I come back out of the fog; and when I come to him
again in the swamp, up there where the feud was; and such-like times; and would
always call me honey, and pet me and do everything he could think of for me,
and how good he always was; and at last I struck the time I saved him by
telling the men we had small-pox aboard, and he was so grateful, and said I was
the best friend old Jim ever had in the world, and the ONLY one he's got now;
and then I happened to look around and see that paper.
It was a close place. I took it up, and
held it in my hand. I was a-trembling, because I'd got to decide, forever,
betwixt two things, and I knowed it. I studied a minute, sort of holding my
breath, and then says to myself:
"All right, then, I'll GO to
hell" -- and tore it up.
It was awful thoughts and awful words, but
they was said. And I let them stay said; and never thought no more about
reforming. I shoved the whole thing out of my head, and said I would take up
wickedness again, which was in my line, being brung up to it, and the other
warn't. And for a starter I would go to work and steal Jim out of slavery again;
and if I could think up anything worse, I would do that, too; because as long
as I was in, and in for good, I might as well go the whole hog.
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